My Blades

CHAPTER NINE

My blades. They are my only friend in this lonely world. I love them and they love me. They are all I have.

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It's been a week since I talked to Caleb. Him and his friends were "bullying" this other kid and I shut him out. That happens to me so why is he doing it to other people? Because he's a fucking jerk.
After school I call Caleb. Voicemail. I take a deep breath in and start talking.
"Hey... it's me. So I'm going to talk to you for the last time. I loved you and you were all I had, but you changed, Caleb, and not for the better." I sighed,"Stop hurting people, you've hurt me more than I hurt myself. I won't be around anymore. By the time you get this, I'll probably be long gone but I just wanted you to know that your a fucking jerk." I almost ended the call but then I added:
"PS, your an asshole."
I put my phone down and grabbed a piece of paper. I said my goodbyes, in the note, and set it on my bed. I grabbed my moms prescription pills and my friends. I sat in the bathtub and made a slice through my visible vein on my wrist. I cut deeper and deeper and the same on the other arm. I dumped the pills into my hand and got water.
I returned to the bathtub and sat down again. I put them in my mouth and took a swig of water.
Silence.
No one was home to hear my suffering. No one cared enough to save me from my demons.
The world is full of jerks, but they aren't the ones suffering. The people that fall in love with the jerks suffer. They aren't worth the heartache when they're gone.
No one really could save me. I don't belong here, I belong in a grave.
Darkness was all I saw. I wasn't meant for this world. I belong elsewhere. I am at peace with the fact that I was never loved and I never will be. I'm ready to say goodbye.