(Warning: This chapter may be very triggering as it addresses self-harm; and I am so sorry if I have made you feel uncomfortable! If you are sensitive, please feel free to skip!)
Dear Esther,
As I'm writing to you,
I've made my official decisionI'm doing it again,
To relieve my stress,
To rid my painYou told me,
Last time,
To stop this game of insanityBut I'm bringing it back,
Just to break me free;
To finally be able to spread out my broken wingsI can't take it any longer,
Being trapped inside a confined enclosure;
Drowning into the unfathomable depths of the oceanThe pen knife I bear in my hands,
Is the key to my freedom;
A perfect illusionI'm sick of the atrocious voices;
My bestial tormentors,
That echo throughout my head
Brutally slaughtering me more,
Each passing dayThe cold blade of the knife,
Rests against my pale and damaged skin,
Sending chills down my spineI shut my eyes,
Steeling myself for what my guts thinks is rightAlas,
The blade slices through,
My whole body feeling fresh and anew
Scarlet red is all I see,
Dripping onto this sheet of paper,
Flowing out of my arm like a rapid streamOne more cut,
And thirty more;
Till my body is too weak and soreMy head is in a whirl,
I can't think straight;
Tears gush down my face,
Like droplets of rainI loathe myself too much to be explained,
My hate and sorrow all vented on my grotesque faceI watch with blurred vision,
As I slowly sink into oblivion,
And light is obscured,
While darkness permeates my tiny world,
Killing me,
Ever so softlyLunacy is all I meet,
Imperfection is all I see
I wish my life could be done and free...Quinn
( A/N : How was this part? I hope none of you were triggered or disgusted in any way...I'm sorry if you were! See you all in the next few parts! Don't bail on me... )
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shards of the heart
Poetry❝the scars that screamed of revolutions inside her head and the shards that made up her heart were things that no one saw.❞ suffering from a terrifying eating disorder and from a shattered home, quinn's greatest tormentor is imperfection. her world...