Dolan twins imagines

Your final goodbye; g.d

(Gonna be sad asf)
Y/N P.O.V
You wake up to your phone buzzing over and over and well it's stuff on Instagram you have been getting a lot hate ever since day one, ever since you and grayson started dating.

"Ugh" I say from my phone buzzing

"turn it off" gray says wrapping his arm around my waist

"i will sorry for waking you up" i say kissing his forehead and heading  out our bedroom door.

I walk in the bathroom and brush my teeth and wash my face I roll up my sweater sleeve to see my cuts all over my arm and wrist I began to cry as my phone started vibrating I unlocked my phone to see hate comments.

"You have to die"
"Your so ugly"
"Gray doesn't love you"
"fucking bitch stole my man"
"Go to hell you belong there"
"She's only dating him for fame she don't love him"
"He should've stayed with the other girl not you"
"SLUT."

I can't take it anymore I throw phone on the floor I don't care if the phone brakes.

I sit on the floor while tears coming down my face all at once, I thought about the hate comments

"why me?" I thought I stand up and open the mirror and take out a blade and I began cutting my arm.

five goes to ten then to i don't know I began getting dizzy so I wrap the blade in toilet paper and flush it down the toilet.

I just watch the gushing blood coming down my arm to the floor while my tears hit arm turning my blood into a pinkish color.

"I can't take it anymore I know what I have to do" I thought.

This wasn't the first time I thought about suicide, almost everyday even Ethan knows well because he's my best friend.

I start to cry even more until I heard a knock on my door

"shit" I say standing up and looking at my self in the mirror my eyes were red and my arm it's still bleeding I roll down my sleeve and open the door.

"Are you okay baby" gray asks me "I heard you crying"

I just hug him and began to cry "I love you I don't wanna leave" I says choking on my tears

"what.. what do you mean you don't wanna leave"he says hugging me tighter "I can't take it anymore.. the hate" I say letting go of him and wiping my tears.

"what hate" he asks "you really don't know don't you" I say picking up my phone and handing it to him he unlocks my phone and he started scrolling down and tears come down his cheek.

"omg y/n I.. I.. don't know what to say.." he says while wiping tears off his checks

"why didn't you tell me?"he says.

"I didn't know how to tell you" I say with a tear coming down my face he just hugs me while I sob on his shoulder.

God I love him so much I don't wanna leave him but he will  find someone else.

*12:39am*

I made it almost threw the day now..

gray knows about the hate, my phone has been blowing up with hate like it usually does but today has been way worst..

I can't sleep.

Gray is sleeping I turn around so I'm facing him I just stare at his beautiful face he's the love of my life.

He's the guy I want to have kids with, get married, spend the rest of my life with but I can't take it anymore I hate this hate it's really ruining my fucking life.

I kiss his lips that I love for the last time and caress his check.

"please don't forget me" I whisper "I love you Grayson bailey Dolan" I whisper again.

I get up and get a paper and pen, well you know my note.

After I finished writing my goodbyes to my family and friends.

Grayson has a different separate note.

I decided to go with the rope, I walk to bathroom I don't know how to do this but I decided to do it I wrap the rope on the shower pole.

I put my head threw the rope and I stand on the shower edge I'm not even crying
anymore.

I feel like I'm finally gonna be happy again "goodbye" i whisper I close my eyes shut..
———-
Now the room is silent.

y/n just killed herself.

she's finally happy she's doesn't have to pretend to have a smile on her face when she's around other people.

she doesn't have to worry about hate or anything.

Grayson just woke up he's calling your name he's getting worried he's keep calling your name but he doesn't hear anything.

he doesn't hear your voice he thinks your in the bathroom or down stairs he goes down stairs and calls your name but there's nothing..

he walks upstairs he opens the bathroom door and see you.

he starts yelling, you didn't know this but he was gonna propose today.

he's crying so hard right now you were the love of his life the girl, he wanted to have kids with spend the rest of his life with, his dream girl .

so many people admire you and you didn't know because you were blinded by all the hate and you let your insecurities get the best of you.

he's yelling at you to wake up but you don't say anything.

"please why did you have to take her? why not me?" he cries.

he calls 911 and tells them what happened, they take your body and gray finds your notes you left for your family and friends then the note you left for personally him.

he's crying so hard right now he can't even read the letter because his vision is blurry.

he calls Ethan, Ethan is yelling in tears because his best friend had left him he loved you very much you were there more then he was there for you.

they told everyone your family and friends they are in shock they didn't expect for you to do this.

they always thought you were strong and brave they always thought you were full of life down to earth, you always had a smile on your face but I guess they didn't know what was behind your smile.