Not My Way

Why me? - 21

*Lilly's pov*

"The destroyer of the what?!?" I asked. "What?" Joe asked as he walked into the room eating an apple.

We both paled at the sight of him. "Nothing!" I said. "Lilly, you should try eating something." He said.

"Not right now. Joli, do you mind if we get out of here? We'll tell him later." She nodded and we left Joe confused.

"The paper!" Joli said and turned around, I stopped her and showed her I had it in my hand.

She sighed and continued. "Thank you. I don't think I'm ready to tell him. I mean, he's only twenty four. Do you think he's ready to become a parent?"

I shrugged. She made a good point. "I still can't believe you had sex with my brother. While I was gone too!"

Her face reddened. She looked at her feet and she reached the next step. When we were all the way up, we went to go eat lunch.

"You really should eat." She said. "You look very sick." I shook my head. "I'm not hungry."

As I said that I saw Terrain walk into the room. "Terrain! How are you doing?" I asked. He seemed very nervous yesterday.

"I'm okay. I feel bad for not helping yesterday." I shook my head. "It's fine. You weren't ready."

"Joli, this is Terrain. Terrain, this is Joli. The Luna, my best friend and my sister in law." I said.

Joli stuck out her hand. "It's nice to meet you." She said. Terrain hesitantly took her hand. He bowed.

"It's nice to meet you Luna Joli." He said. Joli smiled. "It's Joli. Just Joli." She said. I rolled my eyes.

Joe walked in. "Why didn't you tell me?" He asked. "What?" Joli asked. She was nervous.

"That you... Terrain. Can you leave please?" He asked. Terrain nodded and left.

"Why didn't you tell me you were pregnant?" He asked. "H- how'd you find out?" She was starting to cry again.

Joe went over and hugged her she was sobbing in his shirt. "The doctor told me. I asked him and he asked why I didn't know."

"That begs the question. Why didn't I know?" He asked and looked at her. "I didn't want you to hate me. I didn't want you to be upset about me being pregs." She sobbed.

"Why would I hate you?" He asked. I slowly walked out of the room, knowing the this was a conversation just for them.

I walked to my room, but stood at the door. I changed my mind and walked to Deon's room.

I knocked on the door. No one answered. He must not be there then. Maybe he's on duty.

I walked outside and looked around for a hour. No sign of Deon. Maybe he's in the training room.

I looked just about everywhere and could find him. I kicked up my senses and tried to find his scent.

It lead me to his room. I knocked on it. No answer. Is he not answering because its me? Or maybe he's alseep.

In the middle of the day. Yeah right. "Deon. Can we talk about what happened this morning?" I asked. No answer.

"Please?" I asked. I feel like there is a hole in my chest and it's sinking. I sat against his door.

I put my head on my knees and closed my eyes. The door opened and I turned around. Deon stood there with a blank face.

"Fine. Let's talk." He said. I got up and walked into his room. He closed the door and walked over to me. "Sit." He demanded.

I didn't like that he was demanding things, but I need to talk to him. So I sat.

He stood in front of me, leaning on the wall. "Why did you leave?" I asked. "Because." He said. I rolled my eyes.

"That's not answer." I said. "Well it's the answer you're getting." He said. I sighed.

"Why do you have that mark?" He asked. I shrugged. "I don't know." I said. "I was told, whoever holds that mark will kill the moon. The goddess. Our goddess. And I was told to kill them." He said.

"But you know I won't do that. You know I would not want to do anything that could hurt you." He continued.

He walked over to me and sat next to me. I looked at the ground. Deon wanted to kill me. Tears started forming in my eyes.

I rushed out of the room and ran to mine. I locked my door and sobbed into my pillow.

The last time I cried like this was when Harlem tried to rape me. This is what happens when I trust guys.

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I woke up and my pillow was dry. I must have cried myself to sleep. I stood up and walked to the bathroom.

The design was still in my mark. I took some make up and covered it. It showed up through the make up.

I wiped it off and sighed. "Why? Why me? Why did you choose me? I don't want to destroy our goddess. My goddess."

I shifted into my wolf to see if the design would go. It was now a white symbol on my back.

I growled and swung my self at my mirror. It cracked and I shifted back. The glass cut my skin and I stood. I grabbed myself some clothes and changed.

I went back to the bathroom and grabbed a glass shard. I looked at my mark in it.

I was about to cut my mark when there was a knock on the door. "Who is it?" I asked from the bathroom.

"It's Harlem. I want to talk to you." He said. I put the glass down and walked to the door.

I opened it and looked at him. He looked very happy. "Hey. Since I don't know anyone else here, I wanted to tell you. I found my mate."

My eyes widened. "Who?" I asked. "Well... It's the Delta. Carla." He said. "Wow... Congratulations." I said.

"I bet you'll find your mate soon." He said. I rubbed my neck. "Yeah." He waved and left. I closed my door and sat on my bed.

"I hope I'll find my mate soon too..."

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