Full Blood Series

Part One: Full Bloods Chapter Four

"Would you love me different if I told you something?" I ask nervous.

He gives me an unsure look not sure what to say. "What is it?" he asks walking closer to me.

He grabs my hands in his and I take a deep breath thinking of how to tell him that I'm sorry. Sorry for what I did the other day but I'm too scared to. Trevor is all I have and even with all the risks of being with him I'm not sure I could live without him. Without him I'm just my father's son and have no happiness. You think I would like the attention and control I can get over other Full Bloods if I wanted but I don't. It's actually a boring life just trying to please my parents when all I want to do is live my own life. Live a life I will love with someone I love not someone I hate just because of some stupid rules. Rules that tell me who I can and can't love.

"James?" he says bringing me back to reality.

"I promised myself I wouldn't do something but Trevor it's hard. If I don't do certain things people will question what's going on. I don't want something to happen to you. I'm-"

"What did you do?" he asks holding my hands tighter. I can see by his face all the joy and happiness from a few days ago is gone and worry shows. Worry, fear and disappointment wash over his face.

"I promised myself I wouldn't do that thing." I say giving a vague answer. I know he's going to question me more but I can't say it. It's not like it's something horrible but it feels that way to me.

"What did you promise yourself?" he asks again.

"I promised myself I wouldn't feed on any human but only you. I had to though Trevor I was being forced. I'm sorry." I say giving up on explaining anything because nothing I can say will make it sound better. Especially if I told him who I was with.

Asher was the one to push him to the edge and as much as I want to kill Asher I can't. If I confronted him that would mean I left without permission and would endanger not just me but Trevor too. Which is why I hate Asher more for hurting Trevor. If I told Trevor the truth he would probably never want to speak or see me again.

Trevor lets go of my hands as I finish talking looking at me disappointed. "I never told you you had to do that. I just told you not to do-" Trevor starts to say before I cut him off.

"I promised you I would never do that. I'm not like that Trevor and I never will be. Do you think I would do something like that? Kill someone while the one they love watches. I would never do that." I say disappointed that he thinks I would be anything like Asher. I'm nothing like the monster he is. I wish Trevor would understand that and not fear me like I am.

"I know you wouldn't James but you have to understand I'm still getting over everything that happened just a month ago. You came in my life when something horrible happened and promised me the world. Now you come over saying your sorry like you killed someone." he replies.

"It wasn't like that maybe I made it into a bigger thing than it was. Are you mad at me?" I say walking towards him.

"I know what you promised that night. I think about it all the time and I also know you have to feed and feeding off me isn't enough. I just you know how it hurt me what he did to her. I'm not mad how can I be? My boyfriend is a vampire remember? I should be used to it. The feeding, craving of blood, only getting to see you at night. I guess it's just different and I have to get used to it still. Just give me time okay?" he replies giving me a half grin.

"Okay, just know I won't ever hurt you in any way or anyone else. You mean more to me than blood. I can survive off just a little everytime I see you. I know I don't have to but it's a promise I'm making to myself. I love you Trevor." I say wondering if it really is possible to survive that way.

"I love you too James," he says with a smile.

We walk over and lay on the bed for a few minutes not saying a word to each other. Just staring at each other as the time goes by.

"Can I ask you something?" Trevor asks holding my hand in his moving it around.

"Yeah of course." I answer curious to know what he has going through his mind. Sometimes I wish I was a mind reader but then again I wouldn't want to know everyone's thoughts. Some Full Bloods use that as an advantage but I just see it as wrong.

"Will you ever turn me?" he asks taking me by surprise.

"Why would you ask that?" I reply.

"Well will you? You promised forever but how is that possible if I'm still human?" he says answering me with more questions.

I thought about this a few times before by myself. I love Trevor and want to be with him forever. I know it seems weird to love someone this much so soon but sometimes you know. And I know Trevor is someone special but I don't know if I would want to turn him. He would be a Half Blood and wouldn't be the human I fell in love with. Would he?

"Nevermind it was a stupid question." he says before I can answer.

"Is that what you want Trevor? For me to turn you so you can be a Half Blood that has to drink blood to survive? Would that make you feel closer to me?" I ask

"If it means you will never leave me and we can be together forever yes I do. James why would you want me to stay human when you can just turn me if you wanted? I would grow old and die, that wouldn't be forever. Your the only reason I'm alive right now. If you didn't come that night I would be dead. And if one day something happens I don't think I would want to live. The only thing making me want to live is you and the promise you made that night. So yeah one day I want you to turn me." he replies.

I look away trying to think of something to say. What can I say? Trevor has a point but turning him into a Half Blood isn't what I want. I'm scared if I did try turning him I wouldn't be able to stop. Just feeding off him took practice to know when to stop without taking to much. What if I killed him? I would never forgive myself and probably die with him.

"Will you turn me one day?" he asks begging me with his eyes to give him a yes answer.

"One day," I say not sure when that one day will be.

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I hope this chapter is good. It's short I know and I'm working on longer chapters. Most of the chapters I'm just writing as I go. I know the main story plot but I never showed James and Trevor's relationship so most of the chapters I've been writing have been focusing on that. Please tell me if you like it or not. Thank you.

ie, that wouldn't be forever. Your the only reason I'm alive right now. If you didn't come that night I would be dead. And if one day something happens I don't think I would want to live. The only thing making me want to live is you and the promise you made that night. So yeah one day I want you to turn me." he replies.

I look away trying to think of something to say. What can I say? Trevor has a point but turning him into a Half Blood isn't what I want. I'm scared if I did try turning him I wouldn't be able to stop. Just feeding off him took practice to know when to stop without taking to much. What if I killed him? I would never forgive myself and probably die with him.

"Will you turn me one day?" he asks begging me with his eyes to give him a yes answer.

"One day," I say not sure when that one day will be.

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