My diary

I hate everything. I'm not social so I don't like people. I don't talk much. I have few friends but I prefer it that way. I'm trying not to cut but it feels so good. I feel relief when I do. I can't talk to anyone. no one understands. I can't help but feel horrible when I see couples walking around happy. I've never had a boyfriend. Haven't had my first kiss yet. Nobody likes me I guess I understand why. I'm not pretty, I'm shy, I'm not skinny, I'm not outgoing, I'm pretty much invisible. I hate my life, but I can't being myself to end it. I don't know why.