My diary

Mantra

(I'm getting a kitty on Monday. I'm getting a kitty on Monday. I'm getting a kitty on Monday.)

Every time I go on snapchat my "friends" are always together. Ugh! I'm here stuck alone. Its times like these that I want to erase everything... My Facebook, whatsapp, snapchat, instagram, voxer, everything. I hate seeing that while other people have fun I'm stuck here at home with my depression and anxiety bugging me.

Why can't I be like all those pretty girls with nice bodies that have all the guys after them? Of course I'm not like them. I'm not that pretty, I don't have a nice body and no one is after me. Which is why I don't think it'll impact anyone else's life if I'm no longer here, not including my patents.

I was texting my life long friend the other day, he asked how I was I said not good and he never texted back. A couple days later I texted him again and when I was saying bye I said "Love you" I meant it in a family way but he still didn't acknowledge it. When I was over there in California he said I was gorgeous. He's making me feel these things and I don't like it. As hard as I try I just can't be emotionless.