My diary

bio

I'm 19 years old. You can call me Red or Ella (not my first name) I'm not you're typical girl. I'm shy, not pretty, not skinny, I speak my mind most of the time, if I don't like something I'll let you know, I don't fit into a category like hipster, preppy, or anything like that. I'm a little bit of everything I guess you could say. But I do cut and I am suicidal. I've never had a boyfriend, I guess you can see why. I haven't had my first kiss yet, needless to say I'm a virgin. I'm usually never alone but I feel lonely most of the time. Which is why I want a boyfriend, but then again I don't. I'm complicated.