Story Of My Life

How It All Started...

And this is one of the reasons why i don't like coming to church. They put me to the side as if i was an extra person. Im always the one left out. Just like if i was meaningless. A not-valuable person. I saw as the boys were going out and Luis said repeatedly "what about Genesis?" I saw as Charlie just said no and shook his head. And i wonder, would they like someone else to treat him like that? No. Right? Exactly. That is shady. But i'm just going to leave it like that. Like "christian people" say. "Leave it all to God, and he will be the one fixing all of your problems." And i will keep looking forward. Im not letting nobody bring me down, as "Saint" as they are. I will show them i'm stronger than what they think i am. Im really proud of myself and i'm not letting anybody bring this feeling down. I never thought i would get this far, honestly. I never thought i would join the JROTC program. I just thought "that's too much work and too much exercise." But i look back now and see i was totally wrong. Its actually really fun. The uniform actually makes me feel confident and a better, major person. I never really thought i would feel like this. I thought i would just stay feeling like everybody was better than me. But guess what, nobody is better than me, and i'm not better than anyone else. I never thought i would also never be part of such activities such as marching in a parade, or going into a competition, or even have so much fun at school at morning practices with rifles. Yeah. Im glad i do all this, Because if i never did any type of fun stuff, i would still be crying over a boy who i thought "loved me". Its been almost 2 months from where i broke up with him. Everything of him just...changed. I really thought in the beginning of everything that he was such a good guy and i really had different expectations from the real reality. I had to make the choice of breaking up with him to see what he really wanted, what he really wanted to do with me, and the type of thirsty asshole he was (or still is). It all started by seeing each other for the first time at school lunch. I had this Best Friend whose name was Mya. She was as tiny as a midget. She was about 4"11 feet. I met his dumbass thanks to her. Well, so we was at the cafeteria, and right when you enter the cafeteria, theres this specific table where students that keep talking and wont shut up sit. It was also for crazy guys and girls and stuff. Ha! I remember that day going into the cafeteria with Mya, and him talking to her calling her a "potato".But instead of pronouncing the right "potato" he was just saying it (POH - TAH - TOH).
He had this big ass afro too. Well, i told that day to Mya "why don't you call him a carrot?" She just laughed. Then it all really started in the Halloween Dance from School. So i was there with Mya again. And i was taking a cup of Sprite and a cupcake. It October 30th. And i was just enjoying everything. The Photobooth, food, ect. Except for the music. That shit was wack. Well so i was there...just eating my cupcake, and i was messing around with my Best Friend. And suddenly i see two guys coming toward us. A little guy named "Joseph" And the other one with that afro. Yes the thirsty nigga called, "Alexis". I knew Joseph already. So i was just having a normal conversation with him until he said "well Genesis, meet Alexis, Alexis, meet Genesis" and i just looked at him and said a nicely said "hi". He said the same thing back then i left that space and went to the other side of the gym with my other friends to hang out with them normally. Just like a normal person would. After that, we never talked for about a while until november. So as a coincidence, he was in my same ELA 1st period class. That day we had the IPads, having a group conversation about some story topic by texting. Then he comes and texts me through his IPad with devil emojis. So i sent him the "Fuck You" emojis. So he looks at me and says " Ohh Really So Thiss Is How YOU are gonna play?" I just laughed. And so then while returning the IPads to the teacher, he had the nerve to take a off guard picture of me. When he showed me i was like "really nigga? Tf? " He then laughed. And that's how everything started...