Too bad to be good.

Chapter 4

I woke up on Monday morning feeling kind of sad and I was anxious to see jai. Nothing really happened on Sunday, Daniel asked me how the date went and I told him it wasn't a date we just went for some food. I decided not to tell him about what happened with jai punching the guy, I knew he would never let me see him again. Daniel used to fight a lot to get his anger out but he sorted it out so he would never let me be in a relationship with someone who did the same. I went to my bathroom and turned on dial to mid-hot. I chose to wear jeans and a t-shirt with 'new york' branded on the front in red and ankle boots with a leather jacket. after approving my outfit and went and got in the shower, I was just kind of standing there letting the water run over me like millions of little rain droplets, I just was not in the mood today, I could tell it was going to be one of my 'isolation days' as Daniel calls them, I knew I just wanted to be alone. All of a sudden I felt my eyes welling up and before I knew it I was sitting on the side of the bath crying my eyes out with the sound of the shower drowning it out from the world outside the bathroom. After what felt like hours of crying I decided to get out of the shower and get ready for school. I done my makeup like normal and straightened my hair, the blonde in the tips was really standing out today. I went down the stairs still feeling exhausted from crying.

'You ready to go?'

'Yeah, sure' I said to Daniel with a fake smile, I really couldn't let him know that I felt down today, he didn't need this.

We got in to the car and he turned up the radio all the way and started singing, the whole way to school I just looked out the window and wished I could just be happy all the time, I don't like having these days where I just don't want to do anything, In fact I hated them. We got to school and we got out the car, I gave Daniel a kiss on the cheek and thanked him for driving me and ran up the stairs and into tutor. I was the first one there so I was pretty early, I just put in my earphones and turned up my music full blast and put my head down on the table. Before I knew it, people had started to arrive, including Elise,livvie and kasha, I took one earphone out and turned my music down, the all sat down around me. Elise put her hand on my shoulder

'Ellie are you okay?'

'Yeah yeah I'm just um, not feeling well'

'Oh..well, you would tell me right?'

'Yeah of course' I flashed Her a smile.

Tutor ended and I had photography... with jai. We walked into the classroom and there he was, he wasn't in his usual seat, he was sitting in front of me. He didn't see me walk in so I just ignored him and sat down at my desk with Elise. As soon as I sat down he turned around

'Hey'

'Hi' I said bluntly, I really was not in the mood to talk to him.

He looked at me weirdly 'is something wrong?'

'No I'm fine'

'Clearly no-'

'Just leave it jai!'

He looked embarrassed and turned around, I felt really bad, I didn't mean to snap at him.

I sat through the next two hours doing nothing but listening to music and smiling at Elise once in a while, she obviously knew something was up, she doesn't even know about the whole jai situation. The bell went and I had never been so relieved in my life, jai stormed out of the classroom, I knew I had pissed him off... and I was nervous about it. I walked out of the classroom and someone grabbed my arm and dragged me down the hall to the lockers

'WHAT THE FUCK JAI LET GO'

He just ignored me

'YOU ARE HURTING M-'