Deathbeds (Bring Me The Horizon fan fic)

Chelsea Smile

It's been a couple of weeks now. The boys and I have been getting a long pretty well I must say. I really like Nicholls and once again every time Oli is fucking drunk he confesses his love. It's dumb. Today's our huge break before we start the UK. I've never been out country so this'll be fun. I'm in my bunk trying not to get out due to the fear of seeing penises when I do get out. I've seen soooooooooo many. It's terrifying.

I pull the curtain slowly looking in each directions for people. I slowly get out and start tip toeing slowly. I took a huge step and this huge creek came out. I stopped hopping no one heard. Then "YOURE OUT!!" Nicholls yelled butt naked. "GET AWAY GET AWAY GET AWAY!!!" I shout running in one direction since if I turn around I get that thing in my face. "Shit" I say when I get to the end. "HAHA" Nicholls say as he picked me up and walked me the other way then on the couch. "PUT IT AWAY MATT" I shout covering my eyes. "MY EYES BURN. LEAVEEEE" I continue to shout and I heard a zip and Nicholls laughing. Meaning it's safe.

I opened my eyes and pants. "PANTS YAY" I say and he kisses me on the head. "Where's everyone?" I ask "out" he said with a smirk. "lets get wasted?" he asked and I wasn't sure but who cares. No ones here "sure" I said then he grabs out two bottles of vodka and whiskey. Oh lord.

After a few bottles and giggles and confessions we were both out of it. He was out of his minds and I was about to black out. We were in my bunk making out half naked and my head hitting the top. We were pretty much wrestling in a little tiny bunk. "I love you" he said and then bam. Black. Nothing but black. It was loud like I was trapped in a dark box but a thin box.

The next morning I woke up with a terrible handover. My head throbbed my vision was spinning and my hearing was sensitive. It took me a while until I got myself together. Oh yea. Alcohol and Matt. But I can barely remember. The last thing was Matt saying he loves me. That's when I realized my bulk was a mess and I was naked. But Matt wasn't here. I got out and the light hurt me but then a lot of my memory came flooding in. Sex. Oh my god. We bang. No. No. That was our first time. No.

I was holding my head due to the fact all the memory flooding in gave me an even bigger head ache. I saw Matt sitting there which looked weird. So I hugged him from the back and kissed his check but he moved his shoulders and pushed me off. "What" I said quietly "last night was great but I can't." He says not looking at me "what" I ask surprised "my ex girlfriend. She's pregnant" he said. "No way" I say while backing up. My heart pretty much broke. Nicholls didn't say anything. Just say there. I can't believe this.

I ran to Derek's bunk and tapped on him. "Yea" he said groggily "can I get in. I want to talk" I said with tears in my eyes "yea sure" he says while moving over. I got in closed the curtain and started balling even more "what's wrong little sis" he says while hugging me "Nichols. Screwed me over" I say in between sobs "he did not. I'm gonna kick his ass" he says trying to get out and I stopped him "please no. I don't want anything to happen as much as I hate him" I say and he understood. I cried for a long time until Derek fell asleep on me. "Asshole" I smile as I tuck him in and left.

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Sorry it's a bit short. I've been trying to sum up ideas and it's not going so well. I'll try to update soon.