Machenzie's heart

Chapter 13- Fear

Maybe I should cry for help, Maybe I should kill myself, Blame it on my ADD baby~ Sail, Awolnation

It's been a long week for me since I got suspended for covering Lara's ass. When my mom found out she also grounded me so it's not like I can go anywhere. But like I listened to her anyway. I missed Kyle one night so I climbed out the window and walked to his house, I feel asleep there and ran home in the morning, good thing my mom doesn't check on me before she leaves for work or I would have been screwed. It's finally the weekend and I'm stuck in my room doing nothing. But to my luck my mom came in mad as hell.

"I have to leave for a week it's a work thing and I know even if I tell you not to your going to leave and if you don't listen to me I know if I make someone else stay here your not going to listen to them either so I guess your ungrounded" I smirked

"Good thing you know your daughter don't you, so where you going this time and where's dad"

"Quebec City and dads coming with me"

"Okay have fun remember don't tell them your from Ontario and talk French all the time, we don't want anyone keying your car now do we" with that she rolled her eyes and walked out. I remembered the last time she went to Quebec for a meeting I came and I couldn't speck French all so well so I ended up specking English to the wrong people and our car ended up being keyed.

Since there are going to be gone for a week I guess ill just sleep at Lara's and maybe sleep at Kyle's some nights. But I haven't meet his parents and I don't want it to seem like I'm just a toy Kyle uses. Well I have meet his parents but it was online and it was kinda weird. I don't really wanna talk about it. I got packed and headed down stairs to see my parents running around trying to check if they had everything. I shouted bye and grabbed the keys to Stiles. Yes I named my car. well my favourite cars we owned. Dad wouldn't buy me my own or giving me one so we compromised, I take any car I want as long as I take care of it, if I don't lets just say it doesn't get pretty.

With in minutes I was at Lara's house. I let my stuff in stiles I can grab it later. I didn't bother knocking I walker to the flower pot on the window leg and turned it upside down revealing a key hidden in the soil of the plant. I cleaned it off and put it into the lock. As soon as I opened the door Sammy, Lara's large dog. ambushed me causing me to fall to the floor and started licked me it took me five minutes to realize what she was doing and pushed her off and ran to the washroom. Don't get me wrong Sammy is the cutest dog ever but she eats dog food and scraps of raw meat and I don't really want that on my face. When I came out of the washroom I realized that no one was home. I plopped down on the couch in the living room and soon Sammy sat beside me. I pulled out my phone and texted Lara. After 5 minutes she replied explaining that she was at Clayton's and would be home around 10 that they were going out on a date. Her and Clayton always going on dates I swear he's rich!

I thought about going to Kyle's but I felt bad for Sammy poor thing was home alone and I've had my fair share of those. So I decided to stay and keep her company. We went for a walk, ate dinner, watched some TV and rolled around on Lara's bed just to piss her off. It's known that she must have OCD because she freaks when anything in her room is out of place and her bed is her baby and we all know how we feel someone messes with our baby's. We ended the night with food. It was perfect I was stuffing my face with chocolate and Sammy way eating doggy treats. We ate on Lara's bed of course and feel asleep.

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I stood in the train station as people shoved and pushed me mumbling ride things and telling me to move out of the way but I couldn't my feet wouldn't let me. I wasn't in the same train station like the last dream it was different new unwelcoming. I started up al the words on the grand entrance. Welcome to New York. What was I doing in New York and why do I feel so sad. A familiar but unfamiliar hand grabbed mine and pulled me towards the entrance. He walked in front of me so I couldn't see his face. we walked for what felt like hours but never left the crowd. He never spoke nor did I. I don't know but everything about this felt wrong. That's when I remember this is a dream. It wasn't real. I needed to wake up but how. Just as I parted my lips to say something a scream came for behind us everyone dropped to the floor but me. Then everything went white.

************************************* I woke up panting, sweating, terrified. I had this dreams like these for months but never this bad. It's always the same setting and sanareo but this time everything was different. Well almost the train and guy was the same I know that for sure. But now I was in New York and something bad happened and it wasn't me at least I don't think it was. When I fully sat up I seen Sammy sleeping beside me. I grabbed my phone and looked at the time it was 12am. How did I know Lara wouldn't be home. I messaged her "bullshit". I didn't bother waiting for a reply so I threw my phone to the side and rested my head by Sammy. I tired to fall back asleep but I couldn't. So I just listened to Sammy's breathing. It was peaceful in a dog lovers way. I looked up at the cold white ceiling. and thought What was my brain trying to tell me. What are the meanings to these dreams. Not love,hope or anything happy it was something depressing yet over powering something everyone has no matter what age,gender, cutler or religion. That's when it hit me the only thing that powerful was... Fear

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A/N: I want to apologize! I truly do. I have been horrible to you guys I haven't posted even though I promised you and myself. I would say I will try and post again next week but more or less it won't happen. It will take a miracle for me to post sometime soon. I'm really busy with school and dance I'm sorry guys. As always unedited! love all you guys hope you enjoyed it please leave me a comment telling me how you liked it or didn't and if you really wanna make me happy leave a vote <3 well until next time!