Dear God

Chapter 17

I'm back!!!!!!!!!  Yes with my computer!!!!!  Sorry it took so long but here is the next chapter!  Thank you for not disappearing on me and if you have lost interest in my story since I have been away I am so very sorry. 

***As always I do not own A7X or anyone or songs affiliated with them or sung or written by A7X.

Love to all

Tanna

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Tari's POV

It's been three months since my surgery and the Michelle drama. Michelle and I have reached an understanding that we are willing to work on being friends. She has filed for divorce from Steve, she has asked for everything since Steve will be in jail for a while. She has been very helpful with Alec and Jackson. Her and the boys have a new found relationship which have been doing great. Michelle and Val split getting them to and from school and to all their activities. Leana, Gena and Lacey have been helping with my needs and helping keep my company in the black so to say. Suzy has been doing all the house work and grocery shopping. I am so happy that I have my family after a round of chemo to help me. But most of all Brian he is what helps.

I have a doctor appointment today it is my scan since starting my treatments two months ago. I have a scan to see if everything is on track. I sure hope so since the guys are leaving in a month for tour. I really need to go and be with them make sure everything goes smoothly. Not only that I really think that me the boys and Michelle just need to get out of here and take a vacation.

The guys were down finishing up the video for 'So Far Away'. Brian wrote it for Jimmy. He finished it about a month before the album was release. He sang it to me right after he finished writing it. I was in tears by the time he was done. I remember it so well.

~~~Flashback ~~~

"Babe where are you?" Brian yelled as he was entering the living room from his music room.

"Right here please don't yell my head hurts." I whisper yelled. These headaches are awful.

"Sorry baby, do you want some aspirin?" He asked whispering as he sat on the coffee table in front of me.

"No I'm alright plus I just took some. What where you yelling about when you came in here whats wrong?"

"I finished it!"

"What?"

"Jimmy's song!"

"Really you finished it?" Just hearing that he had finished it was exciting. He has been working so hard on it wanting it to be perfect. He was nodding his head frantically and had the biggest smile on his face. He looked like the boys do when they get candy!

"I was going to call everyone over so they could hear it and see if it's good or not. But I thought I would let you hear it first since you always give me your honest opinion." I had completely forgotten about my headache when he told me he finished I have to hear what he wrote.

"Please babe I really want to hear it. I have been waiting for you to finish it. Wait do you think you will get it on the album in time?"

"Yeah Matt said we are going to wait for it to be done."

He was so excited. He picked up his guitar and sat in front of me after he helped sit me up on the couch.

He started singing and I listened intently.

Never feared for anything

Never shamed but never free

A light that healed the broken heart