Locum Tenens

PART TWO: "Sic Infit"

~ So it begins. ~ 

DISCLAIMER: Pretty Little Liars and all its characters is the intellectual property of others. Some characters used in the writing of this fic belong to PLL. Events that transpire, will transpire and have transpired in this story are entirely of my own creation.

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CHAPTER FOUR

Emily gingerly opened the door of the room she shared with Spencer, praying that her friend is already fast asleep. It was way past midnight but usually the girl is still awake at this time of night, either studying for a class or reading for pleasure. Emily slowly exhaled the breath she was holding in when she noticed that all of the lights were turned off and she cautiously stepped inside, gently closing the door behind her.

Once her eyes got accustomed to the darkness of the room, Emily went about changing into her cotton pajamas and loose shirt as silently as possible, not even bothering to use the bathroom for fear that Spencer would stir from her sleep and ask where she's been. She walked over to her side of the room and lied down on her bed, tucking herself under the warmth of her comforter. She was about to close her eyes and try to find sleep when she realized that she forgot to set her alarm clock so she got up into a sitting position and reached for the rectangular object from her bedside table.

Oct. 31. Emily felt lightheaded when she saw the date on the blue display of her digital alarm clock, the month and date seemingly glaring at her in the darkness of the room. I forgot. How could I have forgotten? She thought, her hand starting to tremble as she fought the urge to run to the bathroom and throw up.

Yesterday was supposed to be her 4th anniversary with Jai and she forgot. All because she was busy enjoying Paige's company, covering the girl's eyes and almost kissing Jai's best friend. She shouldn't have forgotten. Emily returned the alarm clock on her bedside table and reached for the photo of her and Jai this time. She stared at it for a few seconds, her other hand clasping the locket on her necklace before touching Jai's face miserably.

I'm so sorry, love. Emily thought, her eyes immediately burning with tears of guilt and shame. For forgetting. For the way I've been acting around Paige lately. For almost kissing your best friend last night. For almost cheating.

Emily curled up on the bed with her back turned to Spencer as she continued to stare at Jai's photo. The moonlight streaming in from the windows barely illuminated their room but it was enough for her to see her girlfriend's features clearly. I don't know what's wrong with me. What's going on. Emily admitted.I still love you. Of that I'm certain. There isn't a second I'm here that I didn't wish that you're here with me. But Paige... I'm so drawn to your best friend lately. And I don't know why. Emily gently wiped her tear-stained cheeks and bit her bottom lip to stifle her sobs.

I'm such a mess right now and I really miss you. I miss hearing you say to me that everything's going to be okay. I miss having you around and making everything okay. Emily thought, holding the frame close to her chest. Things would be so much simpler if you were here.

Emily buried herself deeper under the covers, overwhelmed by the loneliness she suddenly felt when she remembered the last time Jai was beside her. The last time she and Jai were physically together was when they fell asleep on the latter's bed before Jai had to leave for London the next day. That was also the last time she felt safe. Lying on that bed while being held for a few hours by the girl who made her feel that she's the most important person in her life for three years was comforting. Jai never made her feel confused about anything because the girl has always been upfront about her feelings for Emily.