Falling backwards

Fight

French. Oh god. I walk into French knowing who I'm going to see. It kills me knowing who I see everyday. One person who ruined my life. My ex boyfriend, chad. We dated for 2 almost 3 years. I told him everything and when I say everything I mean Everything! And when I say he ruined my life he legit ruined my life.

I told him something that happened in my past, something big. Something that has ruin me and he knows it. Sometimes that makes living everyday worse than normal. And he told his friends. They didn't tell anyone that I know of but they're the kind of people that would make fun of you. And they do. So this is going to be fun 'cause I'm not in a good mood today.

I walk up and sit in my assigned seat. Beside chads best friend. Tyler.

I set my books down on my desk and walk around it and sit down. I sit right beside the door pretty much. All the desks face towards the wall the doors on. I'm the closest to the door. So I see everyone who walks by.

Behind me is chad and a girl that tried to talk to me and be my friend but I don't really need any friends soo..

Tyler bumps his elbow against mine and head nods behind him. I take a headphone out.

"What do you want?" He just points behind me.

I turn around and see the girl looking at me. I totally forgot her name... I can't remember. So I just give her a look. She just stares at me like I scared her, then chad talks.

"So I see you got yourself a new boy toy. Haha, have fun this time." He laughs. Knowing I know exactly what he's talking about.

"For one. He's not my new 'boy toy' he's not even my friend. So how about you fuck off chad, That'd be great." I say as I turn back towards the front of the classroom. I can hear the smile on that girls lips. I don't know why she's smiling.

"Hey babe." Don't call me fucking babe. "Just stay calm. I won't hurt you. Let everything relax." He says towards me. I turn around. Pissed as ever. He knows exactly how to piss me off and how much those words piss me off and hurt me.

I start to get angry. "Just be calm." He repeats. That's it. I'm done. I turn around.

"Who the fuck made you fucking king? Do you want me to tell all of my friends about shit you told me to and then say shit towards me in the middle of fucking class just because some dudes following me around. Real smooth chad. Smooth. How about you take your fucking words and do what you do best and swallow because I'm am so sick of you using my fucking past that obviously haunts me and makes my life harder to live against me. Have you ever had that happen to you? No, well then you wouldn't fucking know."
My eyes are burning, I can feel tears start to form. Fuck. Don't cry. Fuck. "You don't even know everything of that situation. Okay chad. So you and your friends fuck off, I'm done with you and your pathetic shit." I held my tears back but those three knew I was on the edge, everyone around me that could hear me didn't.

"Excuses excuses, that shit probably didn't even happen. You're probably making it up for attention." He starts to laugh as well as all his friends. I am so done with his bullshit.

I stand up, knowing the teachers watching me. Walk closer to his desk and whisper. "Do you want me to tell the about you getting beat? I keep shit to myself. Time you do that too." He just looks at me and laughs.

"Whatever you whore. Maybe you need to be in the mental hospital with your brother." That's pushed me. I look back at him and just stared. "What are you looking at you freak?"

I punch him. I launch myself at him. Punching and kicking over and over and over again. I punched him multiple times in the face. I'm crying. Screaming at him. He falls out of his chair and onto the ground where I climb over him and start punching him even harder. I hear his friends screaming at me telling me to stop. But they don't come close because they know I would do the same to them. Most of the girls are scare and freaking out in my class except like two.

I can feel the teacher pulling on me to back away. I can feel all eyes on me. I stop. Pull back and look around me. I look at chad then back up to leave. I can hear the teacher comforting chad.

"Pussy. It's okay, just relax right? You should be use to it." I say smirking at him. He just looks at me in horror. Good. I'm such a bitch, a hypocrite. Using his past against him after that. I feel like I should say sorry but, Self defence.

I walk to the bathroom. Walk inside close the door and lock it behind me. Nobody's In here. I look in the mirror at myself and start to cry. Just then I hear someone trying to open the door by pushing it. Then I hear a knock.

It's a teacher probably. I won't open it.

"Hello? Natalie." It's not a teacher...

I walk over to the door try to put my best regular voice on.

"Who is it?" I say back through the door.

"Darian, I saw you go in there crying are you okay? Can I do anything?"

"I'm fine. But you can do me something.. Can you go get Alec?"

"Yea..... Sure." He says as I hear footsteps walk away from the door.

I sit there at the bottom of the door thinking about what had just happened when I hear a knock followed by a familiar voice.

"Natalie. Are you okay?" I stand up put my hand on the lock and slowly turn it open.

I pull the door back and poke my head out. Look around to see Alec and.. Darian standing there.

I jump into Alec's arms. Great, im crying again.

I hear footsteps.. Girl footsteps coming down the hallway but I don't seem to move... They stop right by us.

"Natalie...? Is that you?" I know that voice. Madi. I climb down from Alec's arms and turn toward her. She sees how wrecked I am and starts to get watery eyes and hugs me.

"Lets go, in the bathroom, tell me what happened." They all came into the bathroom and lock the door behind us.

"I punched chad. Serval times"

Alec and Madi just look at each other and kind of laugh..

"Good. But why?" Madi says taking my hand.

"He was being chad and talking about the past again and said the exact same thing that you know who used to say to me when... Yea. I'm sorry..."

"Hun, no no no. That is not your fault. That's self defending. Sure if he's not hitting you it isnt. But it still is. If any person is bullying you of any sort and you've asked them to stop and they still haven't and you punch them, its self defence." Alec says giving me a soft smile.

"I don't want to talk about it anymore. I think I'm going to go home. You guys wanna come?" I say smiling through tears.

"You mean skip?" Darian asks..

"Darian there's a couple days left I think you're good. I'm probably suspended so they don't Care about me. Alec and Madi leave all the time with me."

"Oh, okay.."

"You'll be fine." Madi says.

Madi and I fix our makeup from crying while the boys wait. We go toward the door and realize that there's people In the hallways. Theres an assembly. We quickly sneak out of the bathroom without anyone noticing us leave together but people noticing me when I start walking.

"Didn't you like beat up chad?"

"We're you the girl that pulled a knife on chad?" Those two girls. Dumb as a doorknob are both in my class. My French class. They were there. Stupid girls. We just walk away. We walk down the stairs and then all go to our lockers.

I open my locker grabbing all of my stuff that I need. No homework obviously. I grab my pencil case, my book, and my sketch book. I never leave it at school. I did once good thing too, I spilt coke all over my backpack, but not my sketchbook.

I see the hallway begin to clear as the kids go to the assembly. Shit. we should've left when everybody was flowing through the halls. Whatever I can still leave.