Falling backwards

Hey brother

I sit there feeling out of place in my own home. I have to get out of here.

I grab my purse that was sitting on the stairs and grab my jacket.

I grabbed my red stringed keys off the hooks.

I stumbled out the door, closing it tightly and locking it behind me so nobody will break in. I turn around and look at the neighborhood I live in. I live in the ghetto of California, run down buildings and garbage floating around the streets.

Home sweet home, right?

Is a small neighborhood not far away there is some nice houses where the Richie's live.

I stand there for a minute taking in the cool morning air, thinking about where to go.. I look at the time 8:45 on my phone then slide it back into my pocket, it's to early for this shit but I'm up anyways so why not do something.

I will go visit Connor, at the hospital. I pull out my phone again and find the number of st. Thomas  hospital.

I dial the number of the hospital, it rings once and then someone picks up. A sweet voice introduces herself.

"Hello, st. Thomas hospital, this is Emily speaking"

"Hello Emily, this is Natalie Erikson. I was wondering if my brother was up for visitors? I would like to visit him."

"And your brothers name is?" She asks sweetly.

" Connor Erikson. " I state.

"Okay, Natalie he is up but at the moment he is in with the doctor, he won't be long if you would want to come now he will probably be out by then."

I start to fiddle with the buttons on my pockets of my coat while she talks.

"Uhm, yea, I will start my way over there now. Thank you."

"I tell him you are on your way when he gets out okay? See you soon"

I start my long walk I have to get to the hospital. Maybe dad will want to see Connor as well, should I call him? He could drive met here. Shit. I'm supposed to be in school hell ask why I'm not there, I can't tell him I was suspended hell be pissed. Maybe I'll just go alone then.

I turn the corner onto Chads street, his house is a huge white one at the end of the street, one night me and Madi were going to egg it because he is such a spoiled jock. We didn't though, maybe we will later this week.

   I get closer to his house and realize his car is in the driveway. He is home. Why? Did he get suspended too? I continue to walk past his house when out of the corner of my eye I see someone running up beside me.

I turn my head slightly trying to figure out who it is, it's Chad.

"Natalie hey!" He shouts as he runs to me. I stop in mid step.

"What do you want Chad? I don't have time for your bullshit."

He looks at me like nothing has happened and that I didn't beat the fuck out of him yesterday, although his face shows it by the one black eye I gave him he doesn't seem like he cares. 

He totally avoids my questions and asks his own.

"Are you going to see your brother?"

I just turn and look at him with shock on my face.

" why do you care, remember yesterday? I don't even know why you're talking to me. Or is all that shit you said yesterday just for school and out of school you actually care about my family and me?"