Being Justin Bieber's Sister

Sadness yet Happy?

What just happened? Austin cheated in me for a while meanwhile we argued then he left not saying a word. I was depressed it felt like my heart got ripped out into a million pieces. Not only did I barley get out if the hostpital I was in pain I decided to look at myself and I regretted it because I had
dark bags under my eyes pale white ugly skin , skinny to the point where my ribs were showing, and worst of all my hair was an ugly brown an I had cuts bruises like if I cut myself. Just my luck no wonder he left me for that MODEL. I'm not gunna let it get to me but it's hard seeing the person you've loved your whole life with someone 10times better. I felt worthless like no one was gunna love me or call me beautiful . I fell into my bed gently and took my phone out and posted in twitter

" I hope I can get over this it's to much to pressure"

I looked at my followers I had more I had 4 million now I have 11 million. Damm that's a lot I thought to myself . I tweet fans and then get up . I look at myself I need to gai some weight then after go out side swimming and get a tan. But not right now when in fully not - hurt.

Justin walked in my room

Justin: I'm sorry you feel like shit
Me: I need to gain weight
Justin: here I'll ask mom to buy you junk food and since you gain weight fat it'll do no time

He was right I DID gain weight fast we'll not that fast but that's why I never really ate a lot just enough.

-1 week later-
Worst week ever. First, Austin never bared to talk things out I tryed. But no help. Next, I tried gaining weight but I barfed right after I ate witch sucked Lastly, i have to go back to school TOMORROW we'll not school . College I'm 18 and now I have no choice but to go to college. I mean I can't sing my voice sucks now so I might as we'll go to college.

I get up for bloody college as get hanged into high wasted jeans doc martins witch were black and a crew neck that said #Imaginee I know not the best #ootd but what ever it's just college. I get my bag and then Justin takes me to bloody school

Justin: it'll be fine try making friends?
Me: why make friends? They'll use me anyways and I hang out with Miley so-
Justin: Miley isn't such a good influence sometime
Me: when she's around you around me she's very protective

An it's true I've been hanging out with her and she's really protective we'll I've me she is. Were like sisters

Justin: I'm just saying try making friends
Me: yeah yeah yeah what ever blah blah blah
Justin: ok here have a good day I'll be here after
Me: alright bye

And with that seconds later he left I ignored everyone when I arrived all eye on me it sucks honestly .

I went I my first class and some guy was flirting with me but I ignored him towards the end of my LAST class I left early not giving a fuck what the teacher said.

Teacher: Ms. bell sit down right not
Me: no I'm leaving I don't want to be in this bloody school anyways
Teacher: then don't come back
Me: don't worry I was already planing on leaving

Right when I left I walked home I didn't care I didn't wanna go to school and if it means go on tour then I'll fix my voice but right now I'm not going back to that bloody school. When u arrived I saw Justin

Justin: mom was just gunna-

He looked confused and worried.
Justin: Bell? Why re you here early?
Me: I CANT DEAL WITH THIS ANYMORE I DONT WANNA GO TO SCHOOL I WANNA GO ON TOUR " I yelled really loudly.
Justin. Calm down it's ok if you don't wanna go I'm not mad at you
Me: your not?
Justin; why would I be? I was expecting you to come anyways