Boulevard Of Broken Dreams

miranda

HARRY POV

I knew where I needed to take her I know too much about her for her not know about me. The most amazing and then the worst time of my life all in one thing. I need her to know.

"Where are we going then" Louisa asked. She is so beautiful.

"You will find out when we get there, we can come back after if you like" I politely said.

Louisa has made me feel a sense of needing to protect her, that hasn't happened since Miranda, but I don't want to say it to quickly but I think I feel a little stronger now.

As I drive to the cemetary I see her start to get a little confused.

"Dont worry babe" I comfort her.

"Why are we hear?" Louisa questions I take one hand of the steering wheel and interlock my fingers with hers

"I want to tell you about Miranda" I dont know whether I should but I feel like a have to if I want to make this relesionship work.

As we pull up to the dark grave yard, bare in mind its very dark still its about 2;30am.

" Harry im scared" She wimpers.

"Not so brave now are we? here take my hand and ill carry you on my back" I gently lift her up on to my back so she feels comfortable unwrapping my jumper from my body I place it over her head, everything she is wearing is mine, She looks so good.

As we walk up the path, I see it, her grave. My eyes are filling Im not going to cry.

I think Louisa is catching on to why we are here she has heard the name Miranda and I know she would of taken notice to it.

"My last girlfriend the only girl I've ever loved truly died from a drug overdose one year ago" I whisper

"I should of been there, I know who killed her who gave her the drugs and now my gang and his gang have problems. I will never forgive myself for what happened she died in my arms and he injected her with Herion. I loved her so much Louisa and now she is gone. I should of protected her I loved her" Tears are comming out by this point and Louisa is buried her head in my chest she looks up at me and I see tears comming out of her eyes aswell.

" Louisa that is why I knew I needed you. As soon as I saw you you reminded me of her just the way about you. I felt like I needed you but I tried to aviod because I dont want what happened to Miranda happen to you everyone around me gets hurt and there is nothing I can do. I just couldnt not fall in love with you Louisa I shouldnt off but I have and I dont know how to stop it. Since to minute I met you you are all ive though about." I breathed I told her I loved her didnt i? Oh shit, Its too soon but I know its true.

LOUISA POV

He said he loved me, do I love him? I don't know I can't I've only just met him but I do feel really connected to him. I don't know I can't say it unless I'm certain, I'll just pretend I didn't really hear that part. Once I've finished thinking I look up at his perfectly imperfect face, his beautiful green eyes are glossy and tears are falling. I don't need to say anything I understand what he is going through, well I don't but I can try. His anger is slowly vanishing and his vulnerability is submerging, I reach my arms up to his neck and pull him into me, for once I'm the strong one i am protecting him he is crying on my shoulder.

I feel now so much more connected with him, he has opened up to me.

But was I just replacing Miranda of course I dont want to be bitter about the whole thing it is obviously hard for him but everytime he looked at me did he see miranda, realise it was me and then wish it was her. I want to speak to him about this but I cant. How could I say it without sounding like the worlds biggest bitch ever! He just leans into me I can hear him sniffling, ' Harry the Bad boy" "Harry Has no heart" They all said. I know Harry has a heart and is begining to take mine,

There was one thing he didnt know about me though. I still cut. I lied when I told him I was free im not. Yes he is my hero but I am not saved. I make sure I cover them up though, My cuts are on my inner thigh where no one can see them. I dont have a thigh gap nor will I ever so its easy to cover up and I never where reavaling clothes anyway so its okay. I still feel like Justin has control over me and there is nothing I can do about that every time I close my eyes I hear him roaring at me I see him hit me I hear me screaming and no one ever hearing me.

Im not going to tell anyone because I dont want to be a bother to anyone its no big deal its my body. I am quickly snapped out of my deep thoughts by Harry lifting up my chin gently.

"Come on love lets go"

He grabs my hand pulling me of the ground in the cemetary and lifting me into the car. We are driving for 10minutes before I lean over the space between my seat and his seat and kiss his cheek, as i go to pull away he quickly takes his eye of the empty road to plant a soft kiss on my lips. Then going back to driving.

He is so sweet.

We pull up at a 24hour Mcdonals yay I havent ate since the party because Ive slept for most of the time I should of been doing normal things but what can I say Harry's bed is so comfortable 

"What do you want?" Harry asked as we pull up to the window. I lean over him to the window.

"Large Mchicken Sandwich Mean plain with a Vanilla Milshake and a coffee" I know its a lot but Harry should get used to me eating this amout.

"Erm Ill have a tea and large fries please" Harry poilietly says. 'Oh and two dairy milk mcflurrys" He smiled at the woman taking the order. Its 5;15am she deserved a Harry smile.

"That will be $12.56 please" She smiles. I take out my purse and begin to take out a $20 pound note before harry bits it out of my hand and hands her the money. What? He just bit $20 pounds out of my hand! 

"Harry Im staying at your house let me pay!" I whine

"In your dreams" Harry teases.

"You too make a sweet couple" The women behind the window says before snapping us out of our dreams to hand us the sweet smelling food.

SORRY THIS IS LATE BUT I AM NOW UPDATING WEEKLY SORRY KEEP READING THOUGH! X