Boulevard Of Broken Dreams

hold me

HARRYS POV

I had just seen this perfect girl die in front of me. She was still in my arms no movements only crys coming from her mouth. I carried her from the bath as she was wrapped in the towel I placed over her. I laid her into her bed and then wrapped my arms around her shaking body. I didnt say anything it wasn't a good time to speak. I needed to fill the sound of her cry with something. I sang

Diana let me be the one to light a fire inside your eyes you look lonely you dont even know but I can hear you crying

Diana let me be the one to lift your heart up and save your life I dont think you even realise baby you'll be saving mine.

I unwrapped myself from her went into her closet and and picked out some tracksuit bottoms and a long t shirt for her instead of being covered in a towel that had lots of blood on it. I went back to her and kissed her.

" Babe it will be alright okay I know inside you still feel Justin has a control on you but he doesnt ok slowly together we will let this go. You are beautiful and perfect in every single way so put these on and I will get rid of the towel okay gorgeous Ill be back in a minute" I was so sad. I could try my best to try and seem hopeful for louisa but it was hard to see her like this. Really hard I couldnt pretend I just hope she couldnt really tell. But I dont think she could take anything at the momement

I didnt know where to put the towel, it was covered in blood it was making me sick to my stomuch. To think she did this due to Justin. I dont feel angry for some strange reason, usaully anger and hatred are the only emotions I ever feel but this sitiotion just makes me confused. So confused. As too why anyone would force Louisa to have sex with them, why anyone would hurt her, why she would hurt herself. I feel so much empathy towards her I just dont even know what to do I dont know how to react, does she want to be left alone does she want to be held? I dont know what do to. I put the towel into the hood of my car I dont want to leave it in her house anywhere it could like trigger her or some shit I dont know. Ive never experienced this sort of stuff. I go back up to her room to find Louisa dressed with her hair down and smiling. What the fuck? She was sitting on her bed on her phone.

"Erm are you alright?" I whisper

" Yes" She said. What the hell was going on. I didnt know what the fuck to do why was she acting like this.

" Let watch a film yeah?" Lou asked me

"Okay, are you sure you're okay though like after-"

"Im fine" Lou says after cutting me off mid sentence.

She then walks up and selects a film out of the cupboard I dont even pay attention to what she has put on. Louisa jumps onto the bed next to me and gets under the covers Im just sitting on the edge of her bed playing with my fingers awkwardly as she lifts up the shets and gestures me to come under. I feel so uncomfortable there is an obvious elepant in the room that she does not want to talk about but I cant let this go so easily but Im not going to force it on her ethier like what the fuck. I dont have a fucking clue what to do.

I dont watch the film at all throughout I am watching Louisa there is obvious pain in her eyes. I cant not notice it, all of this bullshit of her suddenly doing her hair making an effort was to hide everything. I am snapped out of my thoughts by a sudden tear roll down her cheek. I look up to see the movie is not at all sad so this could not of been brought on by the film. I place the pad of the my thumb where the tear has fallen and wipe her face. I lift up her chin, there is so much hurt in her blue eyes and pain.

" Im not okay" She whispers.

" I know" I reply.

Of course she wasnt ok. I lifted up her body and placed it closer to mine I placed my lips on her forehead and let her lie in my chest. I feel her cry into my chest her body begins to shake, I place her hand onto my bare chest due to it being so cold I wrap my arms around Louisa.