without you i'm a lost boy // ashton irwin and luke hemmings

feelings

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I woke up beside Ashton in the double bed. He was still sleeping soundly. I sighed.

Ever since Ashton and I got together, I realised my feelings for him were just as a friend. He woke up and smiled.

"Morning," his husky voice said. I gave him a fake smile.

"Hi" I reply as I sit up. He frowns.

"What's wrong?" He asked. I got a hoodie and pulled it over my head. I tied up my hair and sighed.

"Nothing's wrong," I say as he looks confused. He got out of bed and frowned.

"Promise?" He asked.

"Promise" I say as I walk out of our room. Robyn and Luke walked through the door laughing. I smiled. They're finally back together.

"Hey Tara!" Luke grinned. I smiled and sat on the sofa.

"How was last night?" I asked. Robyn smiled up at Luke.

"Amazing" they said together. I smiled. Ashton came out and avoided eye contact with me.

"Hey Robyn I need to ask you something," I said, Ashton and Luke looked at me and frowned. "In private.." I muttered. She nodded.

We walked into my room an she collapsed on the bed. I paced around the room.

"What did you want to ask me?" She asked. I bit my lip and sighed.

"I don't think I want to be more than friends with Ashton.. " I mumbled sitting on the edge of the bed.

After a few minutes of silence Robyn spoke up. "Do what your heart tells you, and just see what happens.." She answered. I nodded.

"I'll tell him tonight.."

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I was waiting for Ashton to come back from the shop. He walked in the door, a pint of milk in his hand.

"Hey," he smiled. I looked down and sighed.

"Ash, I need to tell you something.." I muttered. Ashton nodded and sat beside me.

"Do you feel like ever since we've got together we only like each other as - " I begin.

"As friends?" He cut me off. I nodded. "Yeah I feel the same way.." He whispered.

"So what do we do?" I asked. He shrugged and sighed.

"Friends?" He asked.

"Friends," I confirmed. We hugged.

"I prefer you as a friend 'cos then I can mess with you and you won't get mad" he grinned cheekily.

I glared jokingly at him. "Yeah and I can annoy you.. As much as I want!" I grinned. I put my legs on his lap and started watching Misfits. I started kicking him in the stomach. He looked at me and clenched his jaw.

I smiled innocently. "Yes?" I asked. He jumped up and started tickling me. I laughed.

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"Thank you for last night," I said as I wrapped my arms around Luke's neck.

"Anything for my girl" he smiled and kissed my forehead. "You know.. I might move to Ireland.. For you.." He muttered.

"No, ill be going with Niall everywhere.." I said. He frowned and pulled me towards the bed. We both lay down on our backs staring at the ceiling.

"Then why don't you move to Australia with me? Live with me, Tara and my parents.. You can come on tour with me.. I promise ill take care of you.." He said suddenly turning on his side, propping up his head up with his hand.

"I'll talk to Niall about it.." I smiled. Luke grinned and wrapped his arm around me.

"I love you," he whispered into my hair.

"I love you too," I whispered.

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"Tara! There's no milk!" Ashton called from the kitchen.

"I'll go to the shop now!" I shouted back. I grabbed a jacket and walked out of the hotel room and down to the lobby. I walked through the lobby and out into the streets. I walked down to the shop and walked in.

There was only a few people here. I walked to the dairy section and there was a boy around my age there. He had brown hair that was quiffed and he was standing staring at the hot chocolate across from the milk fridge.

"Uh excuse me do you know which hot chocolate is the nicest?" He asked in an Australian accent.

"Uhm the cadbury's is nice.." I smile. He grinned. Oh my god his smile!

"You're not from here are you?" He chuckle. I shook my head.

"Neither are you" I giggled. He smiled and held out his hand.

"I'm Jordan" he said. I shook his hand.

"I'm Tara.."

And that's when everything started...

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that's the end! jordan is jordan jansen.. i love him so much..

so there will be an epilogue/future chapter and then the stories finshed!

Tara x