That other exception

Part 32

((I'm going to try something different in this chapter of the story, hope you guys like it, Please give me some feedback so I know if I need to change anything and what to change.  you don't seem to be as interested in this story as you do the MiniCat version))

End of Memory (back to Delirious in the midst of a panic attack after his nightmare)

I could feel the anxiety begin to ebb away, I tried to think of another memory to calm me down. Turning my head I managed to get enough control of myself to mutter two words into Evan's ear without choking on them.  "First kiss" I felt him tense for a second, I knew the memory was a mix of good and bad feelings for him, it had been only a few weeks after he had told me about the abuse and it was the first time I'd had what you could have called an interesting, if not slightly terrifying encounter with his nocturnal persona.

Evan's Memory of the first kiss

I woke feeling confused, there was something wriggling in my left hand and my right hand was raised over my head, I was finding it really difficult to wake up properly as if sleep was reluctant to let me go.

"Evan!...please be awake"I heard Jonathan's muffled pleas and that seemed to wake me up a little more. It was when I realized that I was sitting up with a squirming Jonathan over my knee, his hands pinned in the small of his back and my hand raised ready to spank him that I woke up completely.

"Oh my god what the hell am I doing"I was panicking, how did this even happen? I let go of him really quickly and pulled him up onto his feet as I stood up "I'm sorry...I'm so, so sorry" 

"forget it man" He chuckled and sat down on the edge of the bed leaving me standing and edging away from him

"W-wha....H-how..." I stammered trying to figure out if there was a way I could save my friendship with the only guy that knew everything about me. 

"I screwed up and tried to resist, I wasn't awake enough to stop myself...aaaand apparently your nocturnal persona doesn't like it when i try to wake you up" He lent back on his hands and yawned, I felt my face flood with heat as I noticed that his sweat pants where straining like someone was camping under there.

"apparently parts of you like it when the other guys does that" I mumbled wondering if he'd even noticed how obvious his hard on was.  He looked down as he crotch and frowned, I was mildly amused and surprised that he didn't even try to cover up.

"it's got a mind of it's own" he mumbled as he glared at his cock"go back to sleep...traitor" the tone of his voice made it sound like he was talking to a friend that was being a stubborn prick and I couldn't help but laugh nervously even though I was on the verge of freaking out.  I ran my hands through my hair to try and distract myself for a second so I could think, I had to keep Jonathan safe I can't risk doing anything that might put him at risk and I can't trust myself  around him anymore.  He seemed to realize what I as thinking because he took me by surprise and pinned me to the wall that was only a few paces behind me. "What are you thinking Ev'..."

"I'll just get another room" I mumbled, I felt so guilty right at this minute, not just for attacking him but I felt guilty for leaving him too, he was everything in my life and I was just going to walk out on him.  I felt my throat closing up like I was being choked, my nerves were so frayed that by body needed a release and apparently it was going to come in the form of tears...but not yet, not until I was alone.

"it's a convention Evan there are no other rooms" he huffed as if I was being unreasonable

"then I'll sleep in the damn janitors room" I growled still trying to convince myself that I was doing the right thing.