Ch.11 Confession time

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Oh hey guys this chapter is just going to be a filler. You will find out what goes on in both of there lives. Today is our last home game against Western. I'm excited, Ahh! Here.....
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(flashback a week before homecoming) Rachel pov
So it has been a couple weeks since me and Kian got together. It was going well until one day Kian came over with a sad look on his face. I let him come in and we went to my room. As we sat on the bed I ask him, "Kiki what's wrong?"
"What is wrong with me Rachel?" "What do u mean, nothing is wrong with you. Kian u are so athletic smart and handsome." All of a sudden he started to cry and I hugged him to give comfort. I feel so bad I can't believe he was showing his emotions to me right now cause I know he hates to show them like me.
"No, no I don't deserve you!" He yells pushing me away. "Kian what are you talking.." He cuts me off, "Rachel you're so beautiful that I feel like you should have better." No, Kian listen to me I love you for who you are. I don't love anyone else but u!" I was getting really upset that he didn't understand this. "You're just don't get it do u?" What is he asking me. "Rachel I don't know how to say this but...."
Kian pov
How do I tell her this is so hard cause what if she wants to break up with me then? What if she doesn't feel safe? So many what ifs... Ugh come on man just tell her. "Rachel I don't know how to say this but I have depression and anxiety." She was crying now great look what you've done. Then she whispers "You're not alone." She thought I didn't hear her well she was wrong. "What did u say." "Kian I have depression and anxiety too. I thought I was the only one who had that pain." I hug her tight. It's crazy how we just told each other probably our deepest secrets. Mine for sure. "And u know what else Kiki." "What?"
"My dad beats me." Oh my gosh I didn't know what to say. My mom and I moved out awhile back. I guess that is why she has those scars.
"Also I tried to commit suicide in 9th grade but failed and I cut." Couldn't believe what I was hearing. She was telling me everything right now.
"Hey it's okay we will get through together I promise," I tell her as she nods and cries even harder. "Rachel u have to promise me one thing though. You can't cut anymore." She says ok. I wish I could hold her all night while we cried to one another. I'm glad today was Saturday so we had Sunday to make it better. After a while I feel her shake a little so I lay down her still in my arms. Then wrapped a blanket around us. I whisper, "goodnight Rachel, I love u remember that." "Goodnight Kiki love u more." She says back but next thing I knew she was out like a light. I cuddled up close to her and thought for a while. I was thinking how we both had the same problems and how we fitted perfectly together. We can help each other fight though this. Hopefully one day we can finally defeat it. During all these thoughts I fell asleep.
(Flashback over)
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Like I said filler chapter and my grammar is bad. The next one will be better I promise and I will try to update every Wednesday. Please vote, comment, and have a great day.
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