Ice: Thaw the Frozen Heart [EDITING]

Chapter 42

Her heart was racing when Kris led her to dance. Her eyes searched for the floor but she ended up stepping on his foot several times. When he told her to look at his eyes instead, she had to chant in her head to keep her heart calm. Looking into his eyes wasn't easy. It felt like his eyes were penetrating hers to see her very heart.

She wondered if he could read her and was partly scared if he knew her heart. She wondered whether he knew that she liked him too... along with another guy. Yeojin despise herself for being like this. She felt like the biggest jerk right now.

Why did her heart have to feel this way? She never imagined she would have feelings for two guys at the same time yet react differently to both. There was no point to deny that she liked both Kris and Sehun, and she thought she liked them equally in the same way. Nonetheless, she feared of losing Kris but not Sehun. How could the same feelings make herself react differently? How could the same feelings make her want to avoid one but keep another? Or were they not the same? Was her feelings stronger for one than the other then?

Yeojin couldn't seem to find the answer no matter how much she thought about it. One thing she could really understand of herself was guilt when Kris told her of his coming birthday. How could that slip out of her mind? And she dared call herself his friend?

Guilt. Guilt. Guilt.

She hated herself too much now.

It struck her hard when he told her how he missed holding her at night. Had his feelings for her gone that deep? She wondered and could only feel guilty again. After much tossing and turning on her bed, she decided to visit him in his room and congratulate him on his birthday.

Nearing midnight, Yeojin slipped out from the bed careful not to wake her mom. She then crept up to his room only to find it empty. She decided to wait for him for a while. Kris didn't come up for a long time though, and Yeojin remembered she read a boring book before sleepiness overtook her.

Her sleep was dreamless but she thought she felt tingles on her lips while she was asleep. And it strangely made her all warm and fuzzy inside.

The sound of running water made her closed eyes twitch. Yeojin turned to her side and moaned sleepily as her eyes fluttered open. Squinting an eye, she reached a hand for her phone on the bedside table to check the time. It was still early in the morning, she noted. The sound of running water from the bathroom stopped, and a few seconds later, the door swung open. The fresh smell of soap Kris usually used reached her nose.

"You're awake already?" Kris asked with a tone of surprise. "Go back to sleep. You can wake up in twenty more minutes."

Without turning to look at him, Yeojin nodded placing back her phone and pulled the cover over her again. She hummed in content snuggling her head on the pillow. But not more than two seconds later, her eyes flew open and she sat upright on the bed. She looked around and only then did she realize she was in his room.

Did I fall asleep here last night? She wondered. Of course, dummy! She knocked her own head.

Her eyes then landed on Kris who was going through his drawer and who- to her fear- only had a towel around his waist. Immediately covering her eyes, Yeojin shrieked making Kris jumped in surprise.

"Sheez!" He then cussed under his breath. "What's wrong with you?"

"Why aren't you wearing any clothes?" Yeojin shouted.

"I'm looking for them," he deadpanned turning back to his drawer.

"Why didn't you prepare them before taking a shower?" She felt heat rushing to her cheeks even though she was still covering her eyes.