Hope

Chapter 8

Watch the video!!! I cried!

Vanessa's P.O.V

Every morning there is a rose or a big thing of roses in my locker and at my house. I have gotten gifts and sorry notes from Lucas. They are all so sweet but I don't know if I can forgive him that easily. But Have you ever felt empty inside? Like you are breaking inside and you are drowning and no one can save you? That's how I feel right now sitting down in my first period in school. Everyone kept asking whats wrong but I shut them out and just assured them that I'm fine. Joey knew I was breaking inside, and he hasn't moved from my side if I do anything. That's why he is sitting down next to me.
"Joey you didn't have to switch your classes to my classes"
I tell him in a whisper.
"Non sense, I need to help you get through this"
he says holding my hand. I feel bad for him because he is supposed to be in his senior classes but instead he changed his classes so he can help me, his little broken sister. Its being over a month since joey started hanging more with me. He follows me EVERYWHERE, and it's not annoying because I know he cares for me but I need privacy. I haven't heard anything from Lucas ever since that night, and Alex still is a pain in the ass. She keeps telling me that Lucas is hers. When will it get better? This is why people that cut do it. They want a distraction and that distraction is to brake every part of their body because they believe they are hideous. Well, right when I felt someone poking me by my right, my train of thoughts crashed. The person that poked me was, the one and only, my brother joey.
"What?"
I i asked.
"I have a idea, I know who can make you laugh if I can't"
he said..................... It was lunch time and joey was on the phone with someone and he didn't wanted to tell me so I just shrugged it off. When we entered the cafe, we went straight to our usual seats and joey went to get us our food. I sat down but not before someone started laughing right behind me. Guess who it was, yup! The school's walking STD, the one and only bitch that can get any guy in bed!!!!! The bitch herself, Alex.
"well, well, well, well, if it isn't the lonely hoe"
She says with her fake friends that LOVE to follow her EVERYWHERE. "Well, Well,Well,Well, if it isn't the winner of being the only walking STD in school"
I said tired of her bullying me and pushing me around. When she has a chance to do those things, she passes the limit. Reason why my depression and now anxiety problems have increased very high. Joey does everything to make me laugh but I haven't smiled.
"Whatever, You have stayed away from my boyfriend, right?"
she asks.
"Look I'm done with you and Lucas, I cant be with someone that will always hurt me, in fact why don't you guys get married already and have tons of kids and be happily ever after"
I said raising my voice. I start making my way to the double doors. I hear my name louder and louder but I ignore who is it. I run out of the school and start walking to my sanctuary.
"I know he can help me when I'm down, probably even save me from drowning"
I tell myself while I get to my destination. 20 minutes have pasted and I finally see the big vivid mansion. On the whole walk to over here I knock twice until I meet with a pair of the perfect blue eyes.
"Vanessa whats wrong?"
my uncle tyson asked getting all worried. When I saw him, all I wanted to do was cry, and that's what I did, I cried in his arms, he just kept telling me words in a soothing way. He kept asking me whats wrong and after more than 20 minutes, I calmed down.
"Can you please tell me whats wrong? I'm really worried"
He said. I told him everything. From what Lucas did to what I did to myself. Then I told him about my depression and anxiety.
"I came here because I thought you can help me"
I tell him looking down at my lap looking embarrassed.
"Vanessa, of course I-"
I cut him off because I stood up and heard something upstairs. I go running up the stairs to see who was it.
"uhh hello"
A orange head woman said shyly covering herself.
"I came the wrong time, if you excuse me, Ill be leaving"
I tell him because I am mad that he just didn't kicked me out or even tell me about a woman in his life, I thought he was like my best friend. I run down the stairs but before I can get out, my arm gets pulled.
"you cant go, what if something happens to you"
He said.
"No, go do what you were doing, I thought you would of told me"
I tell him and my eyes get watery.
"I care about your love life because I didn't wanted you alone, but you couldn't even tell me, your best friend and family?". I pause for a bit and look at him.
"You know whats the worst part, Im drowning in depression while you are screwing some girl"
with that I rush out of the house and left him there. I ran wherever my feet took me. It started to rain but I didn't care. I needed to go to the one I love, the one that can take that pain away. before I knocked on his door, he opened the door.
"Vanessa I was going to look for you, Joey told me that you disappeared, I can't loose you"
he said while hugging me. I cried on his arms because I missed his hold on me. I needed him so bad. Before I stopped myself,
I kissed him and he didn't respond right away but after a second he did. He was holding me by my waist and I automatically brought my legs around his waist. He pulled away and I whimpered.
"we can't, not in your condition"
he says.
"I need you"
I whispered so low that I doubt he heard me.
"Vanessa, I want you to know that I love you so much"
He said. My heart beated so fast when he said that. I kissed him and bit his lip and got a groan out of him. He deepen the kiss but pulled away again.
"I swear, I really want to, but its up to you. I don't want you to regret it"
He said.
"I'm not a virgin you know"
I tell him in a duh tone.
"I know but I didn't know if you were like ready for your own decision"
he said. " I love you so much too"
I tell him sincerely. It's true that I love him so much and I hope that my decision of giving him another chance was worth the shot. He was a little shocked with my words but smiled. His smile was from ear to ear, like the one a kid would give you when he or she got sweets.
"Are you sure you are ready?"
He asked me.
"Yes"
I said proudly. It's been months since I haven't seen him. He grew a beard and has bags under his eyes.
"Do you have energy?"
I asked a little shy.
"Well yea, I just haven't slept because I have been trying to find a way to get you back, And I have tried everything, I was the one sending you all those things."
He said.
"Thank you for all those things"
I tell him.
"Vanessa, I know we aren't in a romantic place but I wanted to ask you something before we get further" He got in one knee and took out a ring. My mouth just dropped open and I was shocked. "Relax, I'm not asking for your hand in marriage"
He tells me.
"But this is a promise ring, I wanted to ask you if you like to be my girlfriend" He asked.
"yes" I said with a grin.
"But whats the promise ring for?"
He had a big smile on his face and I let him talk to explain.
"This is for a promise, that we will try our hardest to keep this relationship  and that we will get married in the future"
he said.
"Okay"
I said happily. happy tears were now coming out of my eyes. He texted something quick on his phone and brought me back to my position. "Now where were we?"
He asks while taking me upstairs. I giggle the whole way there. Right when he places me on the bed, he looks at me with concerned eyes.
"Are you sure you want to do this? I dont want you to regret what will happen"
he says looking everywhere but me. I bring his sight to my face and I tell him loud and clear,
"Yes, and I would never regret this"
I tell him. With that he started kissing my neck and with that he got a low moan out of me.
"Your going to be the death of me"
I tell him breathless when he starts sucking on one of my weak spots on my neck that connects to my shoulder. He smiles against my skin. I bring his lips to mine and kiss him and fight for dominance which he eventually wins. He got a ****** and insert it and got himself in position. I look to the side to wait when he got in but he turns my head so I can make eye contact with him while he gets inside me.
"I love you"
is all he says. I woke up and remembered everything from last night. I never told him to stop this magical moment that lasted more than 2 hours straight.
"Im sorry if I hurted you"
he says when he sees me fully in the morning.
"You didnt hurted me, you made me feel amazing"
I blushed when I said that. I was covered by the sheets and he was grabbing me by my waist. I kissed him and he looked down at me.
"I need to help you to stop hurting yourself, I saw all the scars darling, and it gets me mad that I was the cause of it"
he said. I looked him straight in the eye to tell him the truth.
"You werent the only reason that I did this to myself, it was everything I went through"
I told him. He gave me a sad smile then looked away.
"But I will let you help me stop hurting myself, just know it wont be easy"
I told him in a warning tone.
"I know it wont be easy, that ring isnt there for a reason"
he said.
"Are you ok?"
He askes me.
"I am now"
I told him sincerely.
"Just know that I never meant to harm you, she gave me a drink that made me think she was you"
He said.
"I believe you"
I told him honestly. I hugged him and cuddled with him more.
"We can still go to the date"
he said.
"Where were you going to take me?" I asked him remembering that date.
"Its a surprise"
he said. I groaned and got up. I decided to not cover myself since he already saw me.
"Beautiful"
he said looking at me like if I was the most amazing thing a human eye has seen.
"Am I now?"
I asked teasing.
"Dont do that, you dont want to be more sore"
he said.
"Its worth it though"
I said. I had a smirk right now when I saw him thinking.
"Are you sure?"
He asked.
"Of course I'm sure"
I said. I went to kiss his lips hungrily and thats what it took him to bring me to a different world....a couple of hours later, we get up and change. "Ok lets go"
he says at the door. I went towards the door and we head out. We get in his car and he drives us to wherever this greek god is taking us. I see that we are at the beach but where all the boats are at. We get on this boat that Im guessing is his. It took us like 2 hours to get there but we managed to not get bored on the ride there. We ate and had conversations until we saw a island. I saw a beautiful house that was like 3 times bigger than mine or even bigger than that.
"This is our house, well vacation house if you want to call it like that" he said. He kissed my cheek and I was smiling like crazy. The boat stops and we get off. Lucas leads me to the house and opens the big door. Once we entered, it was all breathtaking, it was like greek but fashionable in a way. It was my favorite style of living in a luxurious house like this.
"What do you think love?"
He asked nervous.
"I dont like it"
I told him dead serious. He looks like I just stabbed him in his heart.
"I love it!!!!"
I said jumping on him. He then looks relieved then catches me while hugging me.
"Let me show you around love"
he said. We went around the house and everything was just amazing. I couldnt believe that this guy, bought this for us. I then started crying and that made lucas seemed confused and worried.
"Beautiful why are you crying?"
He asked panicked.
"Its just that you bought this for us, heck you probably even did this for me"
I said kinda laughing. He kisses me and that made me stop crying.
"I love you"
I said randomly.
"I love you too"
he said kissing my forehead.
"Lets keep showing you around shall we?"
He asked. I took a moment to think if I really wanted to be with this guy. He is the only one that could fix me and I dont believe any time is being waisted on this beautiful relationship. It takes two to make the relationship happen. But that doesnt mean when something happens to just give up on that moment. Its a challenge to see if you truly love this person and I truly love lucas. He makes my heart go crazy and he makes me feel a way that its indescribable. Some people believe that they can describe love but in reality it cant be described. Love its a anonymous feeling that the human body never had before. Its beautiful on how you find the key to your heart, but you never notice it.
"We shall"
I finally respond to him.

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Sorry for the long wait, i had to make a decision about this book. It had to be on hold because it was too mature. My sister is young and she was reading this book, i dont want her to think that this is truly me. Or that this is my imagination. This book has to become appropriate for all ages. Sorry if you did came here for that type of book but I cant show the world a personality that isnt mine.