Hope

Chapter 9

This chapter is dedicated to my little bunny ShakiraMontalvo

Grab tissues, trigger warning!

Lucas's P.O.V

Love its anonymous, you don't know with who you share it or how you feel. You start to believe that a girl so perfect like Vanessa deserves more, a better guy, a better life, a better point of view. She has been through alot and all she believes is that she is a error that is meant to be punished every second of her life. She sees herself as a paper that she is meant to draw on. She is supposed to show her personality but instead she chooses to draw lines, lines that show how much in pain she is in. The shade of all of them, are always deeper, some leave a scar some dont. Those used to be her first ones, the first time I ever saw her paint on herself. She believes its a canvas, to draw on a paper. My beautiful Vanessa doesn't know what true love is because she is so focus on this set mind that she deserves this pain. I stared at her scars while cuddling in the comfortable king size bed. The sheets felt so soft agaisnt my skin, which made me think of last night. Every minute, every second, all of it, its just so fascinating. She doesn't know how wrapped around her little finger she has me. She has my heart in her hands and she is just so innocent that she doesn't know it, she is so adorable. As bad as a Edward Cullen cliché sounds right now, she is so adorable when she sleeps, I enjoy seeing her sleeping. Ok now I sound like a stalker.
"You don't know how bad you have me wrapped around your finger"
I whispered.
She was still sleeping and I smile because Im the reason why. I traced her cuts which awoke her. She saw me tracing them and it was just a deadly silence.
"I deserved them"
she said.
"You never thought that these are your battle scars love"
I said to her.
"You have been through alot, and you still believe you deserve more pain"
I told her. I sighed and looked at her. "You aren't the only one with those, or the thought of pain"
I told her.
I got off the bed and to not think of my past, but it all hitted me like a crashing car hitting a wall, destroying every little piece of it. I remembered how I destroyed myself with a 'canvas' how deep I believed I deserved that pain. I guess you can't fix something so broken. A Glass so shatterd like I am. Everything was taken away from me, my innocence, my childhood, my family. Everything left in a matter of seconds, and the only thing left is Vanessa, my Vanessa.
I don't want her to drown herself with these horrible, disgusting, and discomfort thoughts. I went inside the bathroom and got inside the shower. Once I turned the shower on and I felt the water hit my skin softly like rain drops in a rainy day. The luxurious shower door opened and Vanessa came in.
"Can I join?"
She asked shyly.
I just smiled and nodded at her. I started scrubbing her whole body then washing her hair.

Steamy moment!!! I warned you!!

She grabbed my waist and rubbed herself on me. I groaned and she kept doing what she was doing.
"Stop it"
I said, but It came out as a moan. She looked at me with loving eyes and I couldn't reject or ignore it. I kissed her everywhere and out of nowhere, her legs were wrapped around my waist. I turned the shower off and I carried her back to the bed. Remembering how last night went, her screaming my name. I brought her back to wonderland in those few hours....

Steamy moment over!😥

Vanessa's P.O.V

Love is all I felt from this guy. He shows me in everyway he loves me, verbally, physically. God I love him so much. He fixed me, he put the pieces together to bring me back and make me a better person. He gets the best out of me and he doesn't know that. You don't know with what did I fell in love from him. Was it his smile? His good looks? His personality? F*ck probably even his short soft hair. This guy showed me how to be loved, he showed me that I do deserve to be loved to have love. He respects the love we have for each other. I brush my fingers up and down from his arm lightly. Feeling his skin against mine and remembering how it all went down last night and earlier. His eyes open and he looks up to me with a big smile.
"Hi handsome"
I said. I kissed his lips and he kissed me back.
"Hi beautiful"
he said in his sexy deep voice. I got chills all the way to my spine. I looked at his eyes in adoration.
"I love you"
I told him, honest in all three words. You can't tell someone that you love them just because its a habit, you say it because you mean it and you show them how much you love them in every way.
"I love you too"
he said with so much honesty. I smiled down at him and he came up and captured my lips with his. He pulled away which made me whimpered.
"Queen, we have to get ready to head back home, I wish we can stay here but we have to go back"
he said. I frowned and he didn't missed that.
"We will finish this later" he said and winked. I laughed and giggled because he started to tickle my sides. He stopped and I finally got my breath again.
"Not at my house right?"
I asked.
"My house it is"
he said with a smile.
"Would you like to shower with me?" I asked him.
"You don't have to ask me twice"
he said. He grabbed my hand and lead me to the luxurious shower. We both got in and he washed my back and hair then I did the same for him. He kissed me while holding me up the wall of the shower. I kissed him back and we rested our foreheads together and just stood there in silence. It was a peaceful silence though. We soon got out of the steamy situation and got ready for our day. I did my make up and hair then picked my outfit for today.