my one and only somewhat

new kid

It was the new 8th graders second day so for the old ones it was there first day of course I was one of the new kids so the hole day I sat by my self because I like being alone a lot thanks to my family I never really was a social person I like locking my self away I had a wall build then so it would stop people from coming close to me when I walked in 7th hour everything changed

I notice him he was cute I figured he was dating someone and I was still getting over my ex girlfriend I sat by my self but kept looking over at him I heard that day there was a school dance and hoped he would be there when 7th hour ended I was wishing I had 8th hour but I didn't have the same 8th hour

Later I finally got to the school dance and helped my friend Lexi I ran into someone I had been talking to on Facebook her name was Lizzie I met some of her friends like Kate Sam and Mikayla they soon became mine it was a slow song and I wanted to dance for once so Kate helped me find someone I could dance with his name was gabe at the end of the dance she asked him out for me with my permission so we started dating every slow song I danced with him of course because I was still getting over things I was a little high but still aware of some of the things I was doing I was still trying to get to the old me who was joyful and happy and made everyone around me happy but because of my mom I like being along crying digging knives into my skin drug and wanting to hurt people almost everyday I was high a little then mikayla Kate and me stared being weird and I am a weird child so Kody got in and all four of us where try to say we were the weirdest no one won and the time passed and I didn't see him so I went home

On Monday I got to school and did what I normally and went to the gym where I saw mikayla and met more people that became my friends of course some how most of the day I had friends in my classes but at lunch I met someone named tyler but I call him ty I became one with his friends group so after 5th hour came 6th so I had to take my med to keep me from getting suicidal like I already was they didn't help the never do so I got to 6th hour and sat with ty the only person I knew the time passed and here came 7th my most favorite hour I walked in and we got assigned seat and I sat next to him and my boyfriend at the time gabe of course I don't know how to flirt so my body took control then 7th came to an end then came 8th then going home

When Tuesday came we got our ar/ab I walked in and saw ty and Mikayla my cousin Devin asked if I saw in 8th grade of course he knew me and him have almost gone to the same schools all our lives so he finally came in and everything got better I smiled how I used to and I haven't smiled in almost 3 years I know sad right i finally heard his name and his name is Dean and we came friends so I gave ty and Dean my Skype and Dean found it he became the only one I would text the most

Dean told me his crushes and when I heard I was his crush my heart skimped a beat but I already knew there was a "bro code" I only knew of it thanks to my ex girlfriend who cheated on me and my three bigger siblings I rarely talk to them now and since I am a girl we call it the "sisters code" so I couldn't do anything about it i started a chat between me Dean and Emma I told Emma in a previous chat that I liked him and she took her chances and told him I could only imagine his happiness

After a while me and Dean became closer and I broke up with gabe and me and Emma started talking again cause we got in a fight she wanted to do a double date so I needed someone to go with so I asked him he said yes and I became happy for once again we started talking while we where on two different buses I told him how I did drugs but wanted to stop but never had a really good reason so him and Kate made me promise so I did I was so happy to know he cared for me and they more we hung out the closer we got

During the first week he came to my house and met my dad at my little sister's birthday party of course Connor tried killing me and he had to where I actually couldn't move but he put his hand over his mouth so I bit him and held on tell I tasted blood  he got off and ran to the back yard and said I bit him and my sister mariah was looking at the marks on my neck and my dad asked what the hell happened he didn't even tell at me because the first thing he saw was my throat and after a while we went to the park and me and Dean held hands we staid there for alteast 30 minutes

It was two week in to our relationship and we went to the skating rink but I got grounded after words but I got grounded for two week one week was because I cursed my step mom out I finally got my phone back the day before yesterday

For our one month adversary he got me a half of a heart neckless and he has the other half I love it so much it makes me smile he got Pokémon stuff and everytime I feel sad or scared or nervous i look at it and smile

He calls me baby girl and I love it and I call him Daddy and far as I know he loves it he has no clue how much I love him I went from wanting to be alone to never wanting to be a lone from a different person then what I want to be to a person I wanted used to be i finally smiles bright I has that fire light in my eyes again I rarely cry and I am cuddly I still have a wall up from people getting close but to him it is like card board he easily slipped in without me realizing it

He calls him self ZeFoxIzMe and calls me Thetessfx and together nothing can hurt us and I am happy to be called his and to call him mine with that being said I love you Dean