Shine Bright Like A Diamond

"Diamond?" Reverend Theodore turned around

"Yes" I responded meekly and nodded solemnly on the brink of tears.

"I haven't seen you in a while, Diamond." he said turning around

"Yeah, I just been so busy lately..." I trailed off

"Well, you're never to busy for God, Diamond" he replied in a firm tone

"Reverend, I know I haven't been coming as often anymore, but can we please save the lecture, I just need to be some place other than my house right now, and definitely not school." I said sighing

Reverend was a small person, with all grey hair and a thin build, but his booming voice makes up for it all. He nodded, walking away. I sat on the end of the pew looking around the church, still wondering why my feet took me here. I looked to the clock, rolling my eyes nonchalantly, no way was I going to school now, I would be tardy, I tried convincing myself. And, we all know what happens when your tardy, you first walk into class and everyone stares at you while you speed walk to your seat. Reminds me of kindergarten, like walk of shame to time out, except this time, you will be receiving glances and stares the entire class period.

Then I thought about Jessica, what would she think when I didn't show up to her house in the morning? Would she think I was mad about yesterday? And plus, I hadn't even taken a shower. But at the end of the day, these were all excuses.

And abruptly I thought, "Why make excuses for school?" Not going to school means not learning, if I don't learn, I wont be somebody one day. This one reasonable thought out of the other worst case scenarios running through my head made me find myself on the front doorsteps of my house. 

I knocked on the door impatiently, by now I had probably missed my first 2 classes. My mom opened up the door, heavy bags under her eyes. She looked at me shaking her head, but walking away from the door and retreating back to her room.

I rushed to get into the shower, wash my face, and brush my teeth. Going to my closet I pulled out some gray sweats and a plain white v-neck shirt.  I threw them carelessly on my body along with my Nike's. Exiting the house, I speed-walked to school. Halfway there I regretted wearing a v-neck t-shirt. It kept coming down to my breasts, and I knew if the rest of my day went like this, I would be getting unwanted attention from the male generation. Of course, this lead me to think if that would be a good thing or a bad thing. I arrived at the school during lunch time. I hadn't eaten all day and my stomach was growling. 

I walked inside, recieving my tardy pass, making my way to the cafeteria. It was already loud by the time I opened the double doors, and luckily no one so much as even glanced my way. But, I soon spotted Jessica exactly where I thought she would be, with the cheerleaders and popular's. I frowned going into the lunch line, hoping she wouldn't see me as quickly as I had saw her. I got my lunch, and walked out to an empty table, which was hard to find. 

I sat down, and had to restrain myself from gobbling it all down. I felt a tap on my shoulder and turned around to find a smiling Jessica looking down at me. 

"Hey!" she said overly-excited causing a few looks to be glanced our way

"Hi." I responded simply

"Where were you this morning? I was almost late for school waiting for you, then I went to your house and your mom said you left earlier, so I thought you were mad at me. But then I didn't see you when I came to school, so I didn't know what to think."

"Yeah, I just visited the church for a couple hours, nothing big"

"Oh, well guess what happened with me and Dominique!"

"You finally dumped him?" I asked suddenly interested in the topic

"No, actually like the other way around, he dumped me after he found out I aborted his dumb ass baby." she shrugged

"Jessica, you didn't?!" 

"Diamond, don't say shit, you know damn well my plans for the future and a baby, isn't in my plan." 

"Still Jessica! Who fault is that! You could have told me before you acted like a hoe and went to go do that! You could have at least put the baby up for adoption!" I said in a shout-whisper 

"So, you gonna call me a hoe because I don't wanna lose my figure over an unwanted baby? You know what? Fuck you, your probably jealous because your fat ass never even got pregnant and you still look like you birthed 3 fucking kids. Get out of here with that bullshit." She pushed up roughly from the table and walked away back to the popular's. 

Shortly after, I got up too walking to the trashcan dumping the food from my tray, looking back at the popular table to see them all laughing my way, the loudest of them all, Jessica.