Shine Bright Like A Diamond

Hours later we were in the car on the way to my house. I was satisfied with myself that I had finally gotten my answer and was partly surprised at my built up confidence.

We pulled into the driveway and I turned around to thank him for the ride, but as every time I turn around I am greeted with something other than what I intended it to be. With Dominique it was the honk of his car, with Jessica it was a slap in the face, and now with Dominique (again) it was his soft plump lips moving over my motionless ones. I pulled away shocked and turned my head to the window briefly. "Thanks for the ride" I said quietly before pulling the door open, when he grabbed my arm pulling me back. I slumped on the seat of the car waiting for him to say what he had to say.

"I'm sorry Diamond." he apologized

And right then, I didnt know if it was just how I liked how humble he was being at the moment, or that he was the first boy who was always nice to me, or if it was how cute he looked right now, but I leaned in bringing my lips to his, letting this moment be my first kiss. My lips moved passionately against his, pouring out every emotion I could possibly think of. When we finally released from each other I looked up at him and he looked back at me, and while we both hadnt said a word, we knew what the other was thinking. "Wow." he voiced our thoughts.

I simply smiled and saying goodnight before climbing out of the car. I walked inside the house, slowly closing the door. 

*

3 MONTHS LATER.....

My nipples were painfully erect and I couldn't help but moan when Dominique brought them up to his mouth and began sucking on them. I stroked his member ready to get the first part over with. He slid the tip of him up and down my slit before slowly pushing in. I moaned loudly once he was fully in.

He stared down at me moving in and out slowly until he began pumping fast. "Shit." I moaned under my breathe. He grunted as he moved in me occasionally squeezing my boob. I felt his hot warm seed spill into me and I mentally slapped myself. I gasped quickly looking at him.

"We didn't use protection." I stated the obvious

"You don't want to have my child?" he questioned

I rolled my eyes, "We aren't even together." I responded 

He ignored my comment and I sighed, turning on my side as he draped his arm over my naked body. After the kiss, we had been together almost everyday. We didn't make anything official yet, and that was fine by me. I had so much pent up tension I was okay with sex and fast food. Maybe that surprised Dominique about me, but I couldn't help it if I felt that he shouldn't fall in love with me.

*

I woke up at Dominique's place dreading the fact that I had to go home.  I got out of the bed quietly careful not to wake him up, proceeding to put on my clothing. I scribbled down the home phone number and threw it on his dining room table. I rushed out the door on the way to my house. I walked past Jessica's home and stopped to look up, then I realized that I would have to face her at school. We hadn't spoke ever since I threw her out of my house. I still didn't know about the record deal with her cousin and I really didn't care. I frowned and continued walking. 

Once I got to my house I pushed open the unlocked door. I went straight for my room and began getting ready when the house phone ran. I walked to the corner answering it. 

"Hello?" I questioned

"Aye, why you leave?" asked a yawning Dominique

I smiled to myself  "I have school, and you know that." I responded

He sighed through the phone before replying, "Alright, want me to pick you up after?"

I shrugged forgetting that he couldn't see me and said quickly, "It doesn't matter." 

He chuckled slightly,  "Guess that's a yes then." I could tell he was grinning.

We hung up, and I ran back out the house and on the way to school. When I got there I saw Jessica with her group of cheerleaders. I rolled my eyes. They laughed loudly looking my way, "Oh, well you weren't laughing when I was throwing your ass out my house." I thought. I walked inside ready for the day to end even if it hadn't started yet.

*

At lunch, I decided to skip the rest of school, so I went to the church. When I walked in, it was almost as if Reverend Theodore expected me to come because he immediately spoke.

"The choir misses you Diamond." He said without turning around

"Well, I miss the choir..." I said simply

"I've seen you with that boy, and I hope you know he is nothing but trouble." 

I rolled my eyes for what seemed like the 15th time today. "All you have probably seen us do is eat at the fast food restaurant."

Before he could respond, I turned on my heel and proceeded to walk out the church. By the time I got back to school, it was dismissal so I sat down and waited for Dominique. Soon, minutes turned into hours and I was still sitting on the bench at 5:00 p.m. I saw Jessica walking and I mentally cursed myself for forgetting she had cheer leading practice nearly everyday, and wondering why I hadn't been walked home. I got up and started walking to my house when she called my name. I walked faster hoping she wouldn't catch up. But she didn't bother, and I was glad. 

When I got home, I was heated. I didn't bother to call him, because he called me. I stared at the phone contemplating if I should answer it. I decided against it. I let it ring to voicemail and walked to the kitchen. The table was filled with overdue bills and I rolled my eyes looking into the refrigerator.

He called 2 more times and after the 2nd time I just unplugged the phone. 

I began thinking. What could I expect from Dominique when we weren't a couple? It isn't his responsibility to pick me up from places. Maybe it was time I set terms with him and let him know what we were. I went into my room and called him back, he answered after the second ring.

"Diamond I'm so sor-" he started

I interrupted him, "It isn't your job to pick me up, so lets just limit this to sex ok? Nothing more, nothing less."

There was a  silence on his end of the line. " ... Fine, whatever you want."  he replied meekly

I nodded to myself, we said our goodbyes, and hung up. 

I sat on my bed staring at the wall, was that what I really wanted? Did I act too fast? Was I too into my feelings? I really needed to get my life together, I was skipping school so often that I was on the brink of truancy. I was 17 years old with no car or job.  Starting tomorrow it's no bullshit, I replaced the sheets on my bed, grabbed some dinner, and walked to the church. This is my first step.