NCT Imagines

✧ Haechan

✨ Warning: Angst. Strong words. ✨

Savage Feelings | Lee Donghyuck
word count: 766 words
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Everyone noticed how love did changed you, everyone noticed that you've been vicious ever since Donghyuck broke up with you. That unabashed guy destroyed your heart, destroyed your feelings, and destroyed your humanity. You've changed in an immoral way.

You smoke cigarettes, drink liquor every night, go to clubs, and many unwholesome things.

Despite of everything, you suffer from depression and anxiety. Sometimes you wanted to do self-destruction but you're too frighten to do it.

You know to yourself, and you do, that you're still in love with him— obsessed about him. You feel so lunatic sometimes. It's like.. you've been in drugs. He is your drug. Donghyuck is your drug. 'Oh shit.' you thought. But, after years of dating.. He told you that your relationship with him won't endure long anymore. He told you that he's weary of you. He doesn't love you anymore.

"Fuck that relationship, it's just a waste of time, a piece of shit." You told your friend, while she is just gazing at you.

You wanted to show him how many tissues you consumed weeping over him. It's a shitty feeling for you, it is the worst thing that happened to you. You never knew that a guy would modify you to it's fullest, you thought he's the one for you. But you were wrong. He isn't.

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You wake up, seeing that your room is a complete catastrophe— clothes everywhere, unorganized stuffs, other things in your bed, bottles of vodka and other liquor under your bed.. and many more.

You rise up from the bed, not even fixing your hair.. You don't even heed about that. You walked out from your room, you feel woozy while walking. Your parents are perturbing about your health, you also skip classes now and then. You don't know anymore. You feel so futile. Everything around you is artificial.

And then you suddenly collapsed on the ground.

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Next thing you knew is that you wake up in the hospital, your skin is pale, your lips is dry. Then you see a guy beside you, clenched your hand. You stared at him, you cogitate about that guy. Why is this guy holding my hand? Do I know him?

And when you realize, your eyes widened. 'Is this..'

You heard a groan coming from him, you gasped. It was the guy who abandoned you, and destroyed your whole image. He changed you in a way that is unpleasant in everyone's eyes.

"What the fuck, what are you doing here?!" You shouted and it wake him up. He jolted, while starinf at you.

"Uhm y/n, we need to ta—"

"There's nothing we should talk about, you asshole." You rolled your eyes, as you looked away from him.

"But y/n, I was wrong... It wasn't my intention to leave you and all and I al—"

"Wow, after leaving me like saying you don't love me anymore.. That our relationship won't endure long?! Wow, and now that I collapsed, you're coming at me saying that you were wrong and it wasn't your intention? Shame on you, fatass! I won't ever believe on your stupid-ass words, ever again. Look what you've done to me!" You pointed yourself.

"See this y/n in front of you? She is suffering from depression and anxiety, she is obsessed with you, she's still in love with you, her studies, health, attitude was affected because of you! If you only know how many bottles of vodka and tequilla I've been consuming just because of a fuckboy like you! Do you even know that?! Huh?! Now tell me, why are you here? To visit me? To be with me again? Who do you think I am? I have feelings too, Lee fucking Donghyuck! Playing my feelings shouldn't be your style.. I'm tired, I feel so lost, just because of you."

"y/n... I know, that is why I wanted to say sorry."

"I don't fucking want your apology and I don't even fucking care about you. You wasted something you shouldn't have wasted. We're done right? You don't love me right? Now go."

He looked down. "I guess.. I'll be going.. I'm really sorry.."

"Now get out of my fucking room and leave!" I pointed the door, and went out of the room, closing the door gently.

After he went out, you burst out everything. You knew it was because of him..

But now, after seeing him and shouting with him. You feel quite better.

You're going to move on, and you'll forget about him someday. You'll get rid of it.

You'll be fine.

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my heart while doing this T_T <////3