Runaway from me baby

better off alone

Things have been better since the prison incident, the team at STAR Labs helped me a bit more and I was in the loop now with everything that was going on. Barry still kept his distance along with Wells, and Caitlin it was understandable but that didn't mean they had to leave each time I entered the room.

Iris hasn't talked to me since and I haven't gone back to Jitters, No one besides Cisco bothered to talk to me. It hurt but at the same time I knew it was better if things stayed like this.

I walked around the city not really having any place to be, my house was boring and ever since the flowers showed up I kept my distance. The weird thing was that they kept on showing whenever I went near my house I saw them, when I threw the first few out they stopped showing up at my doorstep and then they showed up inside.I told no one about them since it was probably just some asshole.

Finding nothing to do I head back home. I enter the dark home and all was quiet, a wave of sadness washes over me once again and I slowly feel like I am slipping back into who I was. My feet begin to drag and I slowly make my way up the stairs, once I enter my room I lay on my bed and I sleep.

Hopefully when I wake up things will be better.

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Things didn't get better after I woke up, in fact everything seemed to get worse. Now everyone was ignoring me not that it surprised me much but it still hurt.I much to my surprise made it all the way to star labs. I push through the doors and I make my way to the main area only to see a pretty young blonde, Barry was showing off and making a complete fool of himself. I make my way over and I plop down on one of the chairs Cisco sees me and smiles I return the gesture and I continue to watch Barry. He moves so he is running backwards and then he falls. The blonde lady starts babbling on and on about everything that can go wrong with his speed and I just scoff. If there was a big problem wouldn't we have already seen it take place? I turn and I look at Cisco who was drooling over the girl, I spin back around to see Barry also following her.

I see Wells wheel himself into the room, I look at him for a moment but then my phone begins to buzz. I look down to see it was Lenny, he was sending me some texts about a new heist he was doing. I smile a bit but then it goes away and I'm stuck feeling nothing again. I hear Wells referring to the blonde as Felicity and I nod at least I know her name.

I glance around the room noticing that everyone was around Felicity, they all seemed to be awestruck with how smart she is. I look down at myself, and I realize that I am nothing compared to her. I don't have any college degree hell I am nothing more than a high school drop out. I don't have a real job besides robbing people and I most likely have an eating disorder.

I see someone waving a hand in my face. I snap out of my trace and I look up, Felicity and Barry stood in front of me.

"Um. Sorry,what did you say?" I whisper out, I look down again my eyes locking onto my shoes.

"Hi. My name is Felicity and you are?"I wince at the sound of her overly happy voice, She holds her hand out in a polite way. I stare at her hand for a bit before I manage to grasp it. Her hands was warm and comforting unlike my cold clammy hands.

"Samantha Collins, nice to meet you." I give a small nod and I look up. I see concern covering his eyes and I stand up. I build up my facade and I smirk.

"Sorry haven't had any coffee today. So I'm kinda out of it." Relief washes over me as I see she believes me.I walk out of the building and instantly I could feel myself change. I wipe the smirk off of my face and my body slacks. I begin to trudge through the city once again trying to find something that will make me happy but I come up with nothing.

It was night by the time I ended up at Jitters I knew I wasn't supposed to be here but I was so tired. I push the door open and I see that they are doing some sort of trivia night, I Felicity along with everyone else. Sighing I go up to the counter and I place my order.I turn around and I look at the screen the questions there asked seemed pretty simple and I knew all of answers to them.

I pay for my coffee and I was about to leave when someone called my name, I turn to the voice to see Cisco waving me over. I walk towards him and I see that Iris and Eddy are with them, I was given a glare by the couple and gulp down some of the scalding liquid.

"Um hi everyone." I give a small wave that no one returned. I nod my head and I turn to Cisco.

"You called?" He nods his head.

"Yeah I was wondering if you would like to join us." I glance at everyone and I shake my head.

"Sorry no can do maybe next time. I got things to do with some other people tonight but thanks for the offer." He nods and I leave the building.

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I ended up crashing at one of the hideouts. When I awoke I hear Lenny and Mick talking, I got off the couch and I made my way towards them.

"How did it go?" I place my hands on my hips and I stare at both of them.

"It went swell. Look at what we have." I see a giant gun, it looked cool but what did it do?

"What does it do?" Lenny fires the gun and a giant blast of ice covers our floor. I nod my head and I smile a bit. I move towards them and I give both of them a hug.

"Well sorry we can't stay long darling but we have another heist to attend to." I nod my head and I look at the ground. I wrap my arms around my body hugging myself.

"don't worry when we come back we can do whatever you want." I look up at both of them and I can see that they truly meant it.

And with that leave me.

Not long after they left I get a call from Cisco saying that Barry needed help and that he was in a subway station. I race towards my bike that Lenny brought back and I head to the station.

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I get off the bike and run down the stairs, My heart begins to beat faster when I hear cries of pain. I enter the platform to see something that tore me in half, there was Barry laying on the floor with ice on his chest and Lenny stood over him.

"Stop please." I cry out my voice cracked a bit and both men turned to look at me. I move closer and Lenny moves the gun from Barry to me.

"Go away Sam please, it doesn't have to get any messier than it already is." I shake my head no and I move in between the two of them.

I hear more noise and I see Cisco, Caitlin, and Felicity all standing with another weird looking thing. I move so I and the only thing from stopping Lenny and everyone else.I form an energy ball in my hands, I give a glare to everyone.

"Step back or else." I growl out, I see Barry glaring at me.

"Or else what?" Lenny calls out, I turn to him and I give him a smirk.

"Or else I'll end the fight once and for all." Lenny puts his hands up in mock surrender and glares at me.

"Glad to know what side you are on Sam." And with that he begins to leave, Barry tries capturing Lenny but I constrict his movements making him struggle.

"Sorry but I can't let you get him." Barry snaps his head in my directions and his face turns a bit red.

"Why he is a criminal."

"So am I. I told you that I won't let you get certain people, I also said that I would help you. Did I or did I not?" Barry says nothing and I release him, and in a second Barry has me pinned to the pillar his hand was perfectly wrapped around my neck. His grip tightens but not to the point to hurt me.

"Come on Allen squeeze harder." He sighs and lets me go. I rub my neck and I begin to walk away.