Meta means changing.
I know the very few people that read my books don't care about me or know me that well. And I know that not many of you will really care. But I've been confused about my gender and my sexuality. I am not bisexual. I'm not gay. I'm not straight. Never will be. I've created my own label. Metasexual. Meta meaning changing. I felt like I didn't really have a sexuality, like as long as I got to know you, I liked your personality, and you were attractive to me in some way, I would date you regardless of gender. I didn't feel gay, didn't feel straight, didn't feel bisexual or pansexual. It was like it was always changing. Every day I would either go to school with a girl on my mind, or a boy on my mind. Not in a bisexual way, no. If I came across someone who I thought was attractive and was also trans, I wouldn't mind a bit! But you can't always tell who's trans. So it honestly doesn't matter. Regardless of gender. It changed every day. Girls, boys, whatever. I came up with a label of my own. I am the first Metasexual. It is my label. One I came up with. One I am happy with. Metasexual.
Now my gender is a different story. Some days I'll feel like I am a girl. Other days, I'll feel like I have apsolutely no gender at all. My friend helped me find a label to use for now. I had said I would research any words people use now if anyone else feels the way I do about my gender. Ingender is my gender. In meaning lack of or no. No gender, lack of gender. Some days I feel this "genderlessness" that is there but at the same time isn't. It's hard to explain, I know.. And I know not many will even see this or even care if they do see this. That is what I am now. My name is Kylee or Kyle, my pronouns are she/they, I am Metasexual and ingender and female. Goodnight
