attraction // na jaemin

t w e n t y • t h r e e

For some reason, i feel so sad. In this moment, i feel so sad. one tear escape my eye.

In a moment, more tears has escape my eyes. He pull away and surprised that i was crying. "Why are you crying?" He asked with his gentle voice.

"I'm scared.."

"Why? Why are you scared?" I don't know if i want to tell him or not. I always keep this feelings to myself.

What am i going to do if i found my real parents? Will i ever see my step siblings again? Will i ever see nana again? And for the most important thing, will i ever see him again?

I shook my head and smile. "It's nothing. I'm fine." I am not fine.

"You know, you're bad at lying." He chuckled. Yeah, i suck at lying. Never knew how the liars did it so well.

"It's nothing seriously. I'm fine and there's nothing to talk about." I look down, staring at my shoes.

I'm way too embarrassed to see his face. Out of nowhere, he pull my chin up so i can face him and he brush his tumb over my cheeks. "Don't cry like that ever again alright? You're scaring me with your sudden cry."

He intertwined our hands and we walk across the train railway. We went back home safely. My cheeks are still burning from blushing too much.

When we went inside, we can hear Chenle's laugh. It made both of us stare in confusion. When we're finally at the living room, which is where everybody sit and talk to one another, all of them turned their heads toward us.

"You guys finally made it back home...while holding hands." Donghyuck gave us another suspicious look. Jaemin rolled his eyes and sat on one of the couches.

"I heard Chenle's laugh. What's going on?" Jaemin asked. "Oh him? We're playing dare or dare and he laughed at every single thing." Jeno said.

Then Chenle laughs harder. "See he's laughing again. It's not even funny." Mark said while pointing at him.

"Aniyo, it's fun." Chenle shot back and made all of us dying of laughter. "Cute." I muttered and smile.

"Oh Eun-ah? Are you going to school tomorrow?" Renjun asked. I shrugged in response. "I think so. I'm already feeling a bit better though." I smiled.

They all sighs in return. "It's kinda boring without you in school, Eun." Mark said. That's nice, but i don't even have friends there. I lost one, and i don't think i want to experience that again.

Renjun seems to noticed my anxiety so he sat beside me and pat my back. "It's okay, Eun. You have us! You don't need a friend like Mina." He gave me a reassuring smile.

It's nice to have someone who comforts you when you're feeling down. But even though Renjun already comfort me, it's not working. My anxiety isn't going away.

I feel somehow terrified to go back to school. With those friends who hates me. Who treat me like a loser. Who don't appreciate my existence.

I doubt that if there is no rumors about me spreading at school. Who knows maybe Mina spread some rumors about me to the society.

If so, i don't think i want to live anymore.

"Noona, are you feeling better?" Jisung asked with full of expectations. Even the rest are looking at me with full of expectations.

They all look so pure and innocent. They all look like an innocent growing children. Even though i consider Donghyuck as a pervert brother, i still think that his face are pure and innocent,

but with a perverted mind.

I sighs and stare all of them. "Yeah, i'm slowly getting better. And i'm thankful for that."

"I think you should rest, afterall you're still not completely recovered." Jeno said. I am completely, one hundred percent positive agree with him.

I need a rest, i need a goodnight sleep, or maybe i need a hibernation. That would be great. I nodded and went to my room.

I change into a casual clothes. "Eun-ah i want to tell-" Chenle suddenly open my bedroom door and widened his eyes when i'm in the middle of changing my clothes.

I'm half exposed.

"Get out!" I immediately said and he quickly closed the door. My face is probably turning red again, i probably look like a tomato right now.

I put on my clothes quickly and open the door. Chenle's face is also red like me from the embarrassment. "You could have knocked!" I exclaimed.

"I'm sorry! I should have done that before. I'm an idiot, i'm sorry." He said in one breath, not daring to meet his eyes with mine. "Glad i wasn't completely naked." I murmured.

"So what do you want?" I asked. "Oh um, so there's this girl in our class," I gesture him to come inside. "and she's always asking me about random stuff."

I hummed and let him continue. "What should i do? I was hoping that you can recover quickly from this sickness of yours so you can help me get through this." He pout.

He's such a small baby huh? It's adorable to see him getting scared of something. "Let's talk about that tomorrow when we're at school."

He nodded in understanding. "But there's also a new student from China, she's our age as well, and she's kinda cute." Then he immediately covered his mouth with his hand. Like it was a bad thing to say.

"Oh my god, i shouldn't have said that. Pabo-ya." He smacked his own head. Pabo.

"Our small Chenle is growing up ei? What does it feels like?" I suddenly asked. "Feel what?" He look at me in confusion. "To fall in love."

"Hey i wasn't saying-"

"Yeah yeah save it for yourself, you liar. Introduce me to her, who knows maybe she likes you too!" I smiled.

"Ei seolma. You know what? I think you should rest, good night Eun!" He said and quickly left my room. "But it's not even night yet." I mumble.

I throw myself to my bed and sighs. It's a long day it is. I closed my eyes and drifted to sleep.

Eun-ah, we found you!