attraction // na jaemin

t w e n t y • s e v e n

I pushed him slightly so our lips aren't touching anymore. I feel so guilty kissing him. We're siblings and yet we're doing this.

"What's wrong-"

"We shouldn't be doing this." I said.

He sighs. "We wouldn't be doing this if i don't have any crush on you." Those last words made me shocked, even though i've heard that before.

"I have a crush on you. I don't care if we're siblings, i can't resist my feeling anymore," he stops.

"I like you since the very beginning. Little did you know, i have a crush on somebody really fast. Even though those drugs problems you were having, i still like you."

I stay put. "I know i've done this before in the past. But, i hope you like me too, as a friend."

I chuckled at his sentence. "You know, friends don't make out continuously. And of course i like you too, not just as friend. But as a sibling too."

"Did you just sibling-zoned me?" He laughed. "Whatever, at least i gave you a proper confession." He smiled, i like his smile a lot.

It attracts me even more further.

With a split second, my door burst open and reveal a shocked looking Sanha. When did he get here?

"Confession..?" He furrowed his eyebrows. Oh for god sake not again.

•••

"Aw c'mon Sanha, please don't tell anyone about this." I said, begging to him. "Is he confessing to his own sister?"

"We may be siblings, but not blood related, Sanha. So please keep this a secret."

"But i'm pretty sure i heard the word 'i like you'."

"As a sibling. Nothing far from that."

"Then why would you want me to keep it as a secret if you and him are nothing far than just brother and sister?"

This kid i swear to god. "Because, someone might taking it the wrong way. Maybe someone think that we're dating or something." I lied.

I feel proud with my lies because usually, i suck at doing lies. But at the same time it's a horrible feelings, like i feel bad whenever i tell lies.

I hope Sanha believe me though. Then after awhile, he nodded hesitantly. I sigh and then it hit me. The horrible feelings whenever i tell lies.

"Thank you for believing me. Promise me that you'll keep it as a secret." I smile in relief. He nodded again. "Yeah sure, no problem. Anyway, where are we?" He asked, giving me an innocent look.

I widened my eyes and my body starting to boil in anger. "You don't know where we are?" I asked, trying to restrain my anger. "I thought you knew where i was going."

I took a deep breath in order to maintain my patient. "Let's separate, you need to go back to your home and i need to go back to my home as well."

"Let's ask someone together and then separate." He whined. I scoff before agreeing. He let out a 'yay' and catch up with me.

We asked random people for the direction and they said we're near Hongdae. How did we get this far from my home?

"Oh then it's not far from my house. Do you want to come with me?" He asked with a smile. "No thanks, i need to go back." I smiled.

"Are you okay going home by yourself?" Then i nodded as a yes. "Besides, i've been to Hongdae before with," i stopped track before i bluntly say 'Jaemin'.

I don't need another person who puts suspicion on me. "-my friends." I said, putting a fake smile. Then he raised his eyebrows.

"Friends? I thought you don't have any friends."

I put on a straight face in return of his state. "Okay that's a bit rude. I'm going home and that's final." Then i left him there.

"I can't stand seeing you alone! So i am ready to be your friend no matter what!" I can hear Sanha's voice, shouting from the other side of the road.

When i turn around, i can see Sanha is smiling and waving his hand. "Stay safe!" He shout again.

I can feel my cheeks are getting red flustered. I gave him an awkward smile and then continue to walk home.

What was he thinking?

•••

"I'm home-" With a split second after i entered the house, a group of seven hugged me tightly.

"Thank god you finally home."

"For a second, i thought you were kidnapped or something."

They didn't know? "Yeah i'm home. Please let me breathe." I'm not joking, they are hugging me until i'm suffocating.

"Oh sorry. Where were you though?" Mark asked. "Yeah, where were you?" Jaemin asked, raising an eyebrow like he's trying to communicate with me through our mind.

"I was at Hongdae." I simply said. "Hondae? Why did you go all the way to Hongdae with nothing on your hands?" Did Jeno really expect me to buy something while i was at Hongdae?

"Did you seriously expect me to buy something for you?"

"Well not only for me, but for all of us." Then He put on his eye smile innocently at me. I swear, i can torture Jeno and Sanha at the same time if i have to.

They both driving me nuts.

Then i silently winced because of my still hurting scars and wounds. How did i manage to walk from here to Hongdae with this condition again?

"Here, let me help you walk." Jaemin said, lending me his back. "No it's okay, i can go there by myse-"

With a slight second, he took me on his back, which made me shocked. "The rest of you can go back to whatever you were doing before. I'll take care of her." He said and left with me on his back.

"Why did you do that?" I asked with a low tone. "Did what?"

"Taking me me on your back. I haven't even got a chance to speak." I said. "Because i knew that you will softly reject my offer. You should be grateful that you could be on my back and i'm carrying you. There are lots of girls who wants this experience." He smiled.

I cuss at his ridiculous statement. "Whatever floats your boat mister." I said sarcastically.

The he laughed and i'm here, getting flustered and happy because of him being way too nice. But that feeling soon vanished and replaced by my negative thoughts.

What if he doesn't like me anymore?