I figured you guys should probably know why I'm taking a break, and a lot has happened in the span of two days.
So, first of all, I'm not happy anymore. My parents killed that happiness. They threatened to take me out of theatre, which right now is the only thing that really makes me feel happy and secure. (Not only that but it's like three weeks until show and that would be literally the shittiest thing that they could do, not only to me but to everyone in the show as well.)
I guess I've been overworking. I haven't been sleeping right, or eating a lot recently. That's part of the reason. I want to be healthy again, I need to.
As much as I love my parents, I don't right now. My dad, who's never actually been that involved in my life, has decided that after like three years of not caring and letting my mom decide shit that he wants to start yelling at me for useless stuff that I can't fix.
So, I started crying, which led to a full on panic attack about how I might not get to be in theatre anymore.
On Wednesday night, my life fell apart. I went to school on Thursday, and I wasn't myself. My friends often commented on it.
During theatre that afternoon, I felt okay. I felt happy. I was actually smiling.
And then I had to go home.
I think it was two minutes into the ride home that my dad started yelling at me again. Another panic attack. I cried myself to sleep last night.
I just don't feel happy anymore. The only time I am, is in theatre. I have so much going on, I can't try to keep up with Wattpad to. So, for the time being, I'm taking a break.
I just want to feel happy again.
(Also, a life update: I don't think that freshman likes me, and I don't think I like them as much. It's not going to happen, but I'm okay with that.)
