It's Not Goodbye It's Just Till Next Time

Chapter 6

  I slowly walked into the kitchen to see everyone standing there. My stomach flipped when I saw Jason standing next to Paul smiling at me evilly.

" Hey kiddo how was your day" Ben asked. Jason shot me a glare like you better not tell .

" It was fine" I quietly said.

"I'm just happy she came to dinner" Dan said. I gave a fake smile to them ,and grabbed a plate.

I only put a few things on it before walking in to the living room with the boys. I sat in one of the chairs and began to eat. The others started a conversation with Jason about how the army was ,and if he's going to go back ,which he answered no to. I sat my plate down on the coffee table ,and picked up my book.

" Are you not going to eat" Jason questioned with frustration in he's voice.

"She never eats all her food" Paul answered before I had a chance to say anything.

" JANIS what happened to your arm" Dan shouted. I hadn't noticed that my sleeve had rolled up. I looked down at my arm then at Dan and Jason who were siting on the couch.

"I thought you said you were going to cut your self any more" Ben asked.

I bit my lip and a tears started forming in my eyes. I got up and walked to my room ,but before I could Paul grabbed my arm right where the new cut was. I screamed out in pain ,and he loosed his grip a little. He pulled me over to the chair I was siting previously ,and sat me on his lap. He pulled my head to his chest ,and rested his head on top of mine. He let me cry without say anything. After about 20 minutes of crying I got up and walked to my room. This time no one stopped me.I curdle up under the covers on my bed trying to sleep ,but the pain was unbearable. The saddest part, is isn't the physical pain that hurts the most.

The next morning I woke up at regular time and got ready for school. Oh man I hate Mondays. I could smell something cooking in the kitchen and guess that Paul was making breakfast. I took a quick shower ,and ran to my room to get dress. I luckily found another long sleeve t-shirt to hind the cuts ,and long pants to hind the bruises. I grabbed my book bag off its hook ,and ran out of my room. I was about to run out the when I heard someone holler

" JANIS ARE YOU GONNA EAT" Jason screamed.

"No I have to go" I said meekly ,and ran out the door.

It didn't accrue to me till I was half way down the street that Jason is going to be so mad when I get home that caused my heart sink to my stomach. I kept running even though I didn't have to be at school for half an hour. I finally made it to My best friends ,Megan's, house as she was coming down her steps.

" Hey there" I said with a huge smile on my face.

"It feels like a haven't seen you in seen you forever even though it's been three days, how are you" she asked.

" I've been okay" I said without looking at her.

" I'm your best friend and I know somethings is wrong" she said seriously as we walked.

" Ok ,but you can't tell anyone" I said and she knew I meant it. I lifted up sleeve to revile the cuts.

" What did you do?" She asked in shock.

" I'm not going to lie to you I made these cuts" I said pointing to the horizontal cuts I had made two days ago.

" And these are cuts my forth and oldest brother made" I said pointing to the vertical cuts.

" What I thought you only had three" she asked.

" Me to ,but apparently I have another one that was in the army" I said sadly.

" Why did he do it" Megan said sounding like she was gonna cry.

" I'm not sure to be honest" I choked out.

By this time we were at school 15 minutes early. I decided to go to my first class ,and check over my homework. A few people were already in there so no one noticed me coming in. I pulled out my phone and saw there was a new unread text message from Megan. I unlocked my phone and opened my message to the new one from Megan said "You really should tell the guidance counselor about this" I replied "No I don't want to be the reason he gets sent away they just got him back from a 4 year deployment" luckily Megan is very understanding and just texted back "ok".

By this time the teacher had walked in and was ready to begin teaching. I put my phone down and began listening to his lecture about mass and work. The class went by pretty quickly. I started walking to my next class and met Megan outside her previous class room as it was letting out. We walked to our next class without saying anything. When we got there we took our usual sits next to each other in the corner of the room. Sadly this class didn't go by as quickly as the last class it felt like it dragged on forever. It was like a moment of glory when the bell finally rang to telling us to go the lunch. Me and Megan walked quickly and quietly down the stairs to the outside lunch area. She put her back pack down to save her sit while she went to get lunch. The wind was blowing and it was quit cold outside ,but it really didn't bother me that much.
Finally Megan came with a tray full of food ,and began eating.

" So how are your other brothers?" She asked trying to start a conversation.

" Their ok I guess things are still a little awkward between us" I said. She new me well enough to know I'm an awkward person.

" What did they say about him cutting you" she asked a little worried.

" They don't know he told me not to tell anyone" I quietly said.

" Oh" was all she said before we went your separate ways.

The rest of the class went by rather quickly so I guess that was good. The bell rang dismissing school and everyone ran out to get to their bus or car. I met Megan outside the main door and we started walking home. About five minutes later we were at Megan's house.

"Do,you want to come in?" She asked not really wanting me to go home.

"No I have a lot of homework to do" I said.

"Ok just call me if you need anything" she said.

I nodded and walked home hoping Jason went to the movies with Dan and Ben because, I know Paul wouldn't be home till 5 o clock.