Okay, I know that I have skipped year 8 but that is because there was literally nothing exciting that whole year for me.
Okay so I am currently in year 9 this year. I am now 15 and life has been better as of lately... kind of. This year has been one of the best and worst years of my life. At the start of this year I was participating in an exchange to Germany and for those who don't know I am from Australia. This was the first time I had been oversees and it was for 5 weeks. Since I had never met my exchange family before I was really anxious the whole flight because I really wanted to like them and for them to like me and once I had landed I still had to wait and hour longer because a student that came with us had lost his passport in the plane and then another hour after that because we had to drive from Frankfurt to Marburg and I was so nervous to meet them. Once we had arrived I was relieved of the anxiety and full of excitement because my exchange partner was so hot! It was roughly 10 am there and we got home and I had slept till the next day.
My exchange partner seemed to be anxious and wanted to talk to me about something important and then I got really nervous. We sat in his bedroom for about half an hour and then he started crying and came out as gay to me and it was only fitting that I came out to him. I was so glad that he had done that because we still talk every day and is probably omen of the best friendships that I have ever had in my life time. I even turned 15 in Germany and he said that he really liked me. It was probably the first person to truely love me but it was also heart breaking because I had to go back to Australia the next day. We just sat, cried and ate chocolate together that whole night.
About a week after I got back home to Australia I was pretty keen to find a boyfriend so I found this app called whisper and was trying to hook up with people. I found one guy that really caught my eye so we arranged to go "swimming" at the YMCA in my town and I still cannot believe that I lost my virginity at my local swimming pool. But this guy was really nice, so we kept on going out.
About a week after the YMCA incident I came out as gay to three of my closest friends but they had no idea I was going out with a guy and coming out was hard enough for me to tell them.
A couple of months later one of my so called friends was staring to get jealous of one of my other friends because of who she was dating and I had enough of it so we just cut her out of the group because she making everything seem like it was our fault even though it wasn't. The only thing I was scared of cutting her out was because she is one of the only people I am openly gay to and I had no idea if she was going to spread the rumour around the school but thankfully I had a few secrets of hers so if that did happen we would be even. I don't hate her but I just couldn't stand what she was doing to all of our friendships.
Later that month my 17 year old golden retriever dog was getting really sick and it was finally time to say goodbye to my best friend that I had known for my whole life. The night before him passing was really hard but it was nothing compared to the next day, we had to call in the vet to euthanise him because he was in so much pain. He was never a a dog to bark for no reason but he wouldn't stop because it was almost like he knew it was time for him to go. I am just glad that i was there to hold him and that he was in the comfort of his own house.
A couple of months later I find out my boyfriend was cheating on me with another year 9 at my school so if they come for me everyone will know there secret.
Later that week I got invited to a house party at my friends that went to Germany with me and I needed to be distracted from my break up so I ended up going and I definitely do not regret it. I walked into the door and there was a room of cute boys. I was so excited.
It was a crazy night, I never knew how much of a hoe I was until this night. I have head to two guys and slept with one of them but never the less it was the best night of my life. The only thing that sucks is that they live two hours away from me.
The next day in the middle of my sport class I was talking to another guy from the party and he said that I was really good, I was so confused but it turns out that I actually gave head to three people and then two day later the guy I slept with asked to get close and I was like hell yeah but I was already getting close to a guy from my own town and I still don't know what to do because I like them both as much as each other. It's honestly so stressful being such a hoe.
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This happened about a week ago and now it is present day. My story isn't that long but I will keep you all updated if anything else exciting happens and thank you for all of the support you guys are the best.
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