That girl in your class, she laughs. She has a smile that lights up an entire room. That girl in your class, she has great grades that it seems like she doesn't even have to try. That girl in your class, she has seemingly amazing friends who care ab...
I've been told that if you repeat a word over and over it loses its meaning. I have stayed up countless nights, repeating your name, hoping that you will mean less to me with each breath.
*Alaska POV*
That afternoon made me realize how I stubborn I have been the past few years. I can't make you love me. I can't make it you want me. I can't make you fight for me. I'm slowly realizing I need to love myself, I need to fight for myself.
Sometimes I don't want things to get better. Sometimes I want things to get really bad so I have a reason to kill myself. Sometimes I wish people didn't care, so I could kill myself without feeling bad.
Does that make me a selfish or a bad person?
I turn on the water and fill the tub. As I take off my shoes, my phone is vibrating against the granite of the bathroom counter. It's a number I've never recognized before. I answer it.
Me: Hello?
Unknown: Don't kill yourself over a boy. He'll bring another girl to your funeral. That girl will be me.
Me: Who is this?
I ask anyway even though I recognize the voice. It's Sage.
The phone hangs up but right after my phone starts ringing again. It's Alex. I power down my phone without a second thought.
*Alex POV*
Sorry this person is not available. Please leave a voicemail after the beep. Hi it's Alaska you know what to do.....beep.....
Voicemail box full.
I grab my phone and race outside to my car. I put in the keys and start driving to her house. I must make it before she does something stupid.
*Alaska POV*
I take off my shoes and socks. I let my hair down and climb in the tub. I let myself sink.
I thought I knew what real pain felt like but I didn't until I saw the way you looked at her.
"I love you," I whisper before I put my head in the water.
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*Alex POV*
I'm crying. Tears are screaming down my face making it hard to see. I feel myself try to grab control of the steering wheel but I let go. I feel the car smash into a tree and everything goes dark.
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Being with you was the only time I was ever truly happy.
A/N :Sorry for such a short chapter. I've been super held up with homework and studying.
