That day when i met the coffee shop boy (a George Shelley fanfic)

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8998 Miles (sequel)

A George Shelley fanfic - Part 29

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I woke up, still worrying about George, what if he thinks I'm cheating on him? Actually, no, he does think I'm cheating,

Before I left the house to go to work I quickly sent him a message, even though I knew he would be sleeping, hopefully he'll read it when he wakes up.

To George,

I love you

Those three words meant a lot to me and I really meant them. I do love George.

I ran out the door realizing it was 8:48 and they had been waiting for me, I sat in the back seat as usually and started thinking. What would happen when I go back? I know its ages away still but would me and George be together? Would he still love me? What if he breaks up with me while I'm here? What if I develop feelings for Joe? It all was too confusing and I just wanted to cry my feelings out, although I knew I was in the car with Zoe and Joe so I didn't, instead I just stayed silent... I remembered what George said when I told him I was moving, 'Long distance relationships don't work' was he right? Survey we are stronger...

We got to the shop and I got to work, Zoe then came up to me and stopped me from what I was doing,

"Hey, you alright? You haven't said nothing in the car, or even since you got in the car, you've been quiet"

"I'm fine" I lied, I sighed thinking about my relationship she gave me a hug and then we opened the store.

Throughout the day I put on a happy appearance for the customers, but when we finished the store I sighed, I know George would of read the message and not replied again to me, he probably hates me, Holly knows I still love him its just so confusing... Is this relationship really going to work? Why am I now having doubts, I never wanted this to happen...

I was still silent on the way home, I just wanted to go live in a fantasy world, where I had no problems and just lived happily with George...

Soon we arrived at my house, I said thanks and left the car and ran up to my room, I wanted to skype George but what would I say? Should I mention about yesterday with Joe? If I say It was a date he'll hate me, but If I say it wasn't he would think I'm lying after reading me and Holly's conversation. I decided I would leave in and just lay on my bed. I didn't message Holly nor George or any of the Union J boys, neither Joe or Zoe.

An hour later it was 6:15 and my phone kept going off, I put it on silent ignoring all messages and calls, I laid on my bed like I did when I first came here, acting like a sloth. I was woken up of my sloth life when my mum called my name from downstairs, I groaned and walked down,

"What?" I asked,

"Someone at the door for you" I groaned again, I looked to see who was standing there and it was Joe,

"Oh! Hi" I said surprised,

"Hey, I was just wondering if your okay?" He said as I walked outside next to him closing the street door

"Been better" I said honestly,

"You've been acting strange the whole day, I'm always here you know"

I didn't say anything, I didn't cry, all I did was hug him as he rubbed my back, I still hadn't told him about George, I didn't know if we were still together, why was I worrying about this? Is it all getting too much?

I don't think me and Georges relationship can work, I thought...

Just then I started crying into Joe as he carried on rubbing my back, even though he didn't know what was going on, nor did he ask, he might of thought it wasn't his business to know, but either way he was always there for me.

"Katie" he said after a while of silence,

"Hm"

"Sometimes change is good" I thought about it, the change in moving, the change how I felt about George,

The change about I'm having doubts...

"Yeah...but it's not easy" I said as he kissed my forehead

"Its not..."

"Joe, something happened in the past with my relationship, I don't know if he can trust me, now his ignoring me and I don't know what to do, I've tried to make this work being in a different country and it hasn't..." I wept

"Katie, the past can hurt, but the way I see it, you can either run from it, or learn from it... Maybe you have to learn that if he doesn't trust you or is ignoring you, then its time to move on, it's always hard getting over your first love, and maybe you may get back together, but a break is always good. I know you are more than what you have become, each day you seem away thinking, you need to remember who you are and move away from this boy for a while, then you can decide if he really is worth fighting for"

"Thank you Joe" I said, he had knocked sense into me... And I was going to take a break away from George

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