Brian Quinn - Love is Murder

Chapter 5

To say me and Brian had such a late night for once in my life when i woke up it was 8:07am which really wasn't usual for me. I always started work at 10am as Joey knew if he gave me an earlier shift there was no chance of me being there on time considering how much i even struggle to start at 10.
I got up from the rather uncomfortable sofa i had slept on and made my way over to the kitchen. After grabbing a bottle of water from the fridge and taking my tablets i went to grab my phone which caused me to do a double take. There was two phones there. I completely forgot Brian had stayed over which just have been why i woke up so early. I grabbed my phone and my pack of cigarettes and headed to my fire escape.
Me: Okay Emma have a real big fucking issue
Emma: what that you're actually up this early? I'm just messing what happened last night then?
Me: haha fuck you. Thats kind of what has caused the issue he got so wasted he couldn't even remember his adress to get home so i let him sleep at my place whilst i stayed on the sofa. Please tell me how the fuck i can avoid seeing him this morning when he's laid in my bed?????
Emma: well it seems like it was a great first date but i have to break it to you how do you think you can possibly avoid him when he's in YOUR flat? Unless you trust him to lock up if you're not there and not go snooping through your things?
Me: oh ffs i'm really fucked i'll speak later.
I spent my whole morning cigarette trying to decide how i could not bump into him when he was in my apartment. It was 8:35 when i finally made my way back into the flat when i heard an alarm going off from the kitchen. Walking over i realised it was Brians with 'YOU'RE GOING TO BE FUCKIN LATE' wrote on the screen whilst it was going off. So if this already wasn't awkward i couldn't let him be late for whatever he had to do today i'm going to have to wake him up.
After taking a couple of deep breaths i opened my bedroom door "Brian" i said almost inaudibly. Fuck i need to speak a bit louder remind me to never let something like this happen again. "Brian" after speaking a bit louder i saw him begining to wake up. A sight i never expected to see Brian Quinn just waking up looking more beautiful than i had seen him before with his bed head not to mention the fact he only had his boxers and tshirt from the previous night on. "Brian you have an alarm going off its 8:40 i think you're going to be late for something?"
"Fuck i'm usually up by now" he sounded panicked whilst jumping up and then releasing where he was and what he was wearing which made his cheeks redden. "Heres your phone your clothes are where you left them on the bed i'll give you some space... oh yeah and thank you for doing that with your clothes on the bed" i walked out of my bedroom shutting the door slightly louder than i was comfortable with which made me cringe. How could i possibly feel so weird about how a door had shut?
I heard the door re open and footsteps coming from the hallway. "Listen Low" he stopped when he saw the look on my face "Sorry Lol, listen i'm really sorry about what happened last night i shouldn't have put you in that position to look after me after what you said about alcohol earlier" his facial expression made me feel so sad you could see the guilt written all over it. "Honestly Q its no where near the first time i've had to do something like that for someone and probably not the last" suddenly he interupted "what if i want to be the last?" With a curious look on his face making me freeze "i don't talk about the future i just try to make the most of each day" it came out a lot louder than i expected which gave him a slightly more confused expression "well what if i like to think about the future?" I answered almost instantly "i highly doubt you remember, but i'll say the same thing i said to you last night. I'm not going to tell a nearly 40 year old man how to live his life."
I took him a while to take in what i had just said. "You really are fucking amazing you know that Lol? And i know you don't do goodbyes and you don't really like people being too close to you, but please let me at least give you a hug?" The first part of what he had said made me blush where as the second part caused me to feel exremely uncomfortable, but this may be my only chance to feel him close to me because if he finds out any more about me he won't want to know me at all. "Yeah go on then one hug then i've got things to do" i replied with more confidence than intended which made his face light up as he came closer. "Is there a time limit on this hug?" He asked sarcasm raging through his voice "stop being an asshole Quinn or you won't get one at all." He opened his arms as he walked closer an for some strange reason i really didn't feel AS awkward as i usually do when someone comes this close. As he snaked his arms around my waist i did the same and i could swear he felt me relax a little. We stood there for what feeled like an eternity just enjoying eachothers closeness when he broke the silence "hey you've really go to let me have a good look at those tattoos" he spoke softly, but it sent shivers down my spine which told me it was time to step away. I could see the disappointment in his eyes when he did i knew he wanted more. "Hey i'm sorry i didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable" he said looking at the floor. "You're going to be even later if you stand here feeling sorry for yourself any longer" i spoke whilst trying to cover some of my most visible ink. "Okay i'll go, but only if you promise me one thing? You've got to tell me about those tattoos you're trying to hide" fuck how had he already got into my head he was noticing my every move. "Yeah maybe one day Brian see you around"
"Oh believe me i'm going to see you again" he spoke with a smug smile on his face how could he be so sure about himself, but deep down i knew i really wanted to see him again. "I know you won't say goodbye so i'll say it for you okay Lol? I'm sorry i fucked things up last night and i'll never put you in a position like that again. As much as you seem like you don't want to i hope we get to re do last night so i can make it up to you. Goodbye" and he closed the door behind him. I instantly grabbed my packet of tabs and headed back outside. Wow he really does seem to care about me, but i can't deal with another broken heart. I need to keepy distance.

Sorry for the short chapter i have really bad jet lag, but wanted to write something:)