Happened Again

One Last Time

"Thinking about him again, sweetie? "

"Uh!! Nope, not at all, I have gotten over him long ago, didn't you know? " , I lied.

"Yeah, I can see. " He smirked and I de knew that I couldn't deceive him.

Was I such a bad liar, or is it that he understands me more than him?

"Here, come. Let me love you. "
Jaden pulled me over and made me sit on his lap. His warm toned arms embraced me like a blanket and I closed my eyes.

Jaden was my escape, my only distraction that worked. I did try a lot of things to divert my heart and mind from him. But, all went to vain.

But, there is nothing more addictive than another human, is there?

Hence, Jaden became my drug, even the mention of his name made me high. He made me forget about my miseries, though temporarily, but it was all worth it.
            But, I wasn't in love with him, neither was he.

We call ourselves friends with benefits, well in a better way though. I admit the late night sexting and making each other loved.

But, we set our own limits.
       I was and I still am very grateful for the debonair feeling his glowing eyes would radiate.  With him in the same room as me our eyes never left each other.

Now people thought that Jaden and I are dating.

I guess he thought too.

Will he be jealous?

"Wake up, princess."

Jaden's , husky voice woke me up. Damn, he is so cosy that I fell asleep in his arms.

"I got to go somewhere, would you mind if I left for a while? " he asked.

"Of course not! "
        Definitely yes! I don't want you to go and my happiness trail after you.

"You sure? Will you be fine yourself? "

"Obviously, Love. I'm as strong as a diamond. "
       Hell no, please don't leave me.

"Yup, you're my diamond! Bye! "

He pecked on my cheek and went away.

"Bye....... "
       Come back soon.

I kept my gaze on him till he was out of my sight. Gathering up myself and to shed away his lingering thoughts, I stood up to leave the room.

Were they still there?

I took the courage and went out, I can't keep on relying on Jaden everytime.

And then, I came across them.
Lip to lip, tongue to tongue. Synchronizing themselves together.

I ran away, as fast as I could.

I felt weak, seeing them kiss each other so oblivious to the rest of the world.

Suddenly, my arms felt heavy, as if something is trying to weigh it down.

"Are you okay? "

I turned around, and he was there! Standing right in front of me, his one hand holding my arm.

Are you done snogging yet!?

I glared at him, those thoughts tried to escape my sacred lips.

"What do you want now? Do you want me to choke myself to death? Do you want to tear me apart?  Then congratulations, it's working! "

"Hey, come on. I meant none of it. I was looking for you all the time, I was so bored."

"That's why you came looking for me, you were bored!!!  uh-huh, I get it.  But how can you be so bored of the world, weren't you just snogging her? "

"You saw?!  I'm....  I'm really very sorry. Nobody is certain of the future. I promise, if things don't work out with her, I'll come to you, you are more than my best friend, you know it. "

"Of course, honey. I'm more than your best friend, because I'm your second option, your second choice!! I never knew that you thought so low of me. "

"I... I didn't mean that!"

"Let's break our friendship. Just acquaintances from now on. No more bffs!"

"But, I can't live without you! "

"Then learn to. "

I stomped out of the building and towards my home. He stood there motionless, amazed. He couldn't believe that I actually had the guts of throw him out of my life.

But from my heart?

He was confused, between me and her. I helped him sort things out by removing myself. I know my feelings for him will only grow deeper and keep on scarring me for life, but I won't fall in love again. Maybe, because he was all I wanted, I still want and maybe I will be wanting.

He wouldn't have lost me, if he would have taken the right decision at the right time.

But deep down both of us know, and maybe even Jaden knows that I will keep on waiting for him.