Happened Again

Fingers Intertwined.

We looked at each other for a while.

Silence consuming us.

My black eyes raging with the passionate love I tried to tame. And his brown eyes, tender and soft, as if trying to decide how to blow out my fire.

Oh honey, I have been trying the same thing for a while now.

"You should have told me earlier, I mean an your feelings. I would have given a positive reply, but.... "

I stared back at him in utter astonishment, suddenly I couldn't recognize the person standing in front of me.

"Look, you are more than a best friend to me and I.. "

I cut his words and spoke my heart out.

I had nothing to lose, no, not anymore.

"More than a best friend?!?!?
What am I then?!? Your mistress?! Your side-kick girl?!?  What!?!! 
Are you really so dumb or you got so good at pretending not to know?! Oh god! How couldn't you know the entire time that I was in love with you?! That your best friend was in love with you!!
Huh!  And you claim to understand me the most? I carried out all those lovey-dovey plans of you for her, didn't you notice me flinch?!  Of course not!!  You were and you still are so obsessed with the idea that your this thing you name love is all you need!! 

Do you even know how insecure and lonely I felt at night when you chose to text her instead of me?

How can you do it so easily, honey? Turning a once confident girl into something so fragile, so vulnerable.

How can you make me fall for you and not know? AND NOT KNOW?!?!! "

       I broke down, slowly letting the gravity pull me closer, I was too tired of faking it all.

Faking it that I was happy for him.

He pulled me up, and made me stand and looked into my tear smeared eyes.
"You're eyeliner is still perfect though! "
He smiled after making the remark and rubbed his thumb over my cheeks. I was red, I thanked the half covering darkness to keep my flush hidden.

"Who knows about the future? We are totally uncertain about it "

I didn't know what he meant but I argued no further.

Suddenly, his other hand started to make way to mine, I gave him. I let the warmth seep in through. And just like a moth to drawn towards burning flames, I let myself wander into his direction.

And then I noticed : our fingers fit each other perfectly, just like a jigsaw puzzle.

He pulled me closer and we stared into each others eyes.

With the perfect person, even silence seems bliss.

"Why are you staring at me so hard? "

I snapped out of my void, back to the present. This memory walk seemed so real that I couldn't even tell when Jaden came and sat in front of me.