the bad guy's good girl

chapter 25

1 week later.

I've never felt so empty before.
It's half term. I'm back at home. When the term starts again I won't be starting straight away because you know. I got stabbed.

I've not eaten. And I've barely slept. My mind wonders about what Simon would be doing right now.
He'd probably be here at home with me, looking after me. But no. He's probably drinking. Lying in a gutter somewhere on the streets.

Hopefully he hasn't done something he regrets.

My whole world is dark. I feel like someone ripped out my heart. And drove a big truck over it.
There was nothing I could do to stop him when he broke up with me. He left me in a very vulnerable state.

I just wanted to talk to him. About what Stephen told me. At first I hated him, but I can't hate him. Right now, my emotions for him are just hatred. And sadness. And betrayal. He gave up on us so easily.
He didn't even try.

I'm resting in bed until my phone goes off.

Mia- how you feeling Anna? X

Serena- we could come over to see you? We can watch movies?

Anna- I'm fine don't worry :) just getting some rest xx

Sam- JJ just told me that Simon went out last night and hasn't came back.

Anna- What?!?

Mia- SAM! WRONG CHAT

Sam- shit! Erm. Bye.

Anna- GET YOUR ASS BACK HERE NOW!

Sam- apparently he drank lots and he isn't home yet.... they've tried to find him. But there's no sign of him yet.

Aisha- well sheeeeeeet

Tiffany- Have none of the guys heard from him?

KK- nope :(

Anna- I'm sure he is fine.

Mia- you don't sound sure :(

Anna- I'm fine okay? I just need some rest xxx

Oh god. What's he done? I hope he hasn't done something bad.

There's only one thing I can do right now.

Anna- Simon everyone's worried sick about you. Can you come home please? Even if you don't want to talk to me, at least answer someone.

10 MINUTES LATER:

Anna- Okay I do need to talk to you. So call me or text me please.

And nothing. He's read it. And no reply.

I throw my phone across the room and cry.
I miss him so much. It's only been a week. If this breakup is forever, how am I going to cope?

Simon's POV:

I groan in pain as I open my eyes. Hangovers. How fun.
I only get drunk when I'm depressed and sad.
I miss Anna more than ever. I know she's out of hospital. I hope she's okay. I check my phone to see 2 new messages of Anna and millions of missed calls and texts from the guys.

Hold on a second. Where the fuck am I?
I turn around to see a girl, in bed next to me.
No. No. No. No. No.
What have I done?!?

She stirs and wakes up. Well shit.
"Oh hey" She says.
"Did we sleep together?" I ask.
"I think so" She sits up.
"No. I have a girlfriend" I grab me clothes and put them on.

"That's not what you said last night" She chuckles.
"What did I say?"
"That you broke up with your girlfriend. That's why you were drinking. And that's how you ended up in my bed"
"This was a mistake. A big mistake" I start to leave.
"Well call me for a round 2" She winks and I shudder at the thought.

I think I need to see Anna. I need to tell her. But she's definatly gonna hate me.
Tell her? Or not tell her?

Firstly I make my way to dorm room.
As soon as I get there, I'm met with a bit of a stressed out JJ.
"Where the fuck have you been?" He shouts.
"I got drunk"
"Yeah I can smell it Jesus Christ. Why do you also smell like a girl?"
Oh fuckery.

"You slept with a girl last night? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?" He shouts again.
"I know okay! I'm so dumb"
Next thing I know, he fuckin punches me.
"She really does deserve better than you"
He walks away, clutching onto his fist.
Fuckin hell. What have I done?
And I need to tell her.

I've been to her room, no one is home.
So I need to text her.

Simon- I do need to talk to you. Meet me?

Anna- I can't leave my house. My address is (random address)

Simon- I'm on my way

I guess that's her home.

I get in my car and drive to the given address.

Once I get there, I prepare myself before knocking on the door.
Thankfully, it's Anna who answers the door.

She looks pale. And fragile. Her eyes are red. Have I done this to her?

"Come in" She says weakly, moving out of the doorway
She takes me up to her room, walking quietly, not talking to me.

Once we get there, I get straight to my point.
"Okay I need to tell you something"
"What?" She says, with a worried look on her face.
"Last night I-I-I went out and got drunk. So drunk that I.....slept with someone else. And I had to tell you. I'm so sorry"

Her face drops.
A tear falls down her face as she gets closer to me. Next thing I know, she slaps me across my face.
To be honest, I so deserve it.
"Get out" She whispers.
"I-"
"Get out!" She screams.

I slowly walk to the door and she pushes me out, slamming the door behind her.

Tears fall down my face. And as I walk away, all I can hear is her muffled cries.
I've fucked up so badly.

A/N
Guess who's back????
It's been a while I'm sorry :(
But now that I'm back at school I've just been really busyyyy :(
I've just been procrastinating basically haha

Anyway, that's all tbh, have a lovely day and see yaa