the bad guy's good girl

chapter 26

Emptiness.

The feeling of betrayal takes over me.

Heartbroken.

My heart feels like it has been stamped on.
Funny how my stab wound doesn't even hurt anymore. Or I just can't feel it over this heart ache.

I'm struggling to breathe. The air feels thick. Heavy. My first real relationship has gone down the drain.
Someone I loved and cared for deeply, cheats on me.
To be honest, I didn't even care about what happened with Stephen. He got drunk and betrayed me.

If I have to see him at school, then so be it. I know Simon well. He probably won't even turn up. It's going to be so awkward.
This is too much.

Nothing makes sence anymore. I don't know what I'm doing.
I'm lying in bed crying, surrounded by used up tissues. The usual cliché.
That's not what I want to be doing. I don't want to spend the rest of my life, crying over a boy. And a relationship that lasted how long?

Over the next couple of days I tried my hardest to get my strength back.
I have to go to school soon. Is Simon even going to be there?

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It's time to go back to school. Ugh. I'm dreading this so much.
As I'm getting changed, my eyes fix on my scar. The scar from Stephen. It goes across my stomach and it's a bit swollen, but I can deal with it.

I go downstairs to my mom.

"You excited to go back to school today?" She asks me.
I look at her with the 'really' look.
"Sorry, I forgot about Simon. You'll be fine okay?"
"Yeah I hope"
"You don't have to go you know" She says.
"Yeah but I want to. I need to see my friends"
"Okay. Well call me if you need anything" She hugs me.
"Will do"

I drive back to campus. And as soon as I get there, I go straight to my room, that I share with the girls.

I open the door and I'm sad that they aren't here yet. Goddamn it.
I shut the door and hear "SURPRISE" from behind me, scaring the shit out of me.

I turn around with my hand over my chest, and it's all the girls!
"Wassup you sket" KK shouts.
"Wassup you hoes!" I scream and we all hug each other.
"I've missed you guys so much" I say.
"We got some catching up to do"

So after talking for a while, I've found out that Aisha is with Vikk, KK is with Harry, let's just say we are all in relationships.
Well. Not me.

"So how have you been after Simon?" Tiffany asks.
"Tiffany!" KK slaps Tiffany over the head.
"What? What did I say?" She defends herself.
"It's fine. I guess it's been hard, but I'll get over it" I put on a smile.
"We will be here for you okay?" Mia says.
I smile and nod.

Because it's the first day back, there aren't any lessons. So we decided to go for a walk and see if there was anything going on.
We bump into the guys. But no Simon.

"Oh hey Anna" Tobi hugs me.
"Hi Tobi" I hug him back.

"How are you holding up?" He asks.
Ugh, why does everyone keep asking? I'm trying to forget about this and no one will let me, Jesus Christ.

"I'm fine. Can we drop the Simon subject now please?" I ask kindly.
They all apologise and agree.

Until.
Fucks sake.
Is it him?
Is that really Simon?
Walking across campus? With his hood up? Completly ignoring his friends? Ignoring me?

"What you gazing at?" Sam asks. She looks in my direction.
"Well shit"
Simon turns around. My heart drops at his face. He looks so broken. After all, I broke up with him because he cheated on me.
"Anna..." his voice calls out.

A tear drops down my face. This is the first time I'm seeing him since the break up.
He slowly walks towards me.
My feet take over and I move back. No stop! No keep walking! I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!

"Please" He cries.

By now, all the girls and guys are watching us, staring awkwardly, not knowing what to do.

"I've missed you so much"

Soon, I'm running away.

I run back to my room, I've been at school for about an hour and already I'm crying.
My heart will break everytime I see him.
Who knows if we will get back together?
The only way to get over him?
Move on.

A/N
Ya girls back :)
This chapter is so off, I know :(
Let's just say I've not had the best day. I had a mock exam and kinda had a panic attack. Tbh i don't wanna talk about it, I freaked out so much that I cried next lesson.
(Causing the attention of my crush. Lol)
I am okay.
Anyway.
Have a lovely day and see yaa