I've Got You

chapter 17

He clearly hear what Jai said, he was raging to say the least,

Beau's P.O.V

I can't believe my arsehole of a brother. He fucking attacked Jamie. Now he is crossing lines, why did i have to be stuck with a dickhead of a younger brother!

i walk over to charlie, she flinches when i put my hand on the small of her back... whats going on? she has never ever flinched at me touching her, maybe she's scared because Luke. Charlie and Jamie have always been close. very close, i don't blame them, they have to stick together. i snap out of my thoughts, charlie is shouting my name, shes moved from the kitchen to the bedroom. i sprint up to our bedroom, i look at her, she looks back at me and smile, motioning for me to go sit next to her,

i do as i am asked and she takes my hand and places them on her stomach, i wait for minute, then i feel it, the baby was kicking, there where tears in her eyes, i don't know if it was pain or happiness, i really hope its happiness. I hate to see her in pain.

she's around 6 months pregnant now. We got a call from our agent, she wants us to go on tour, i tell the boys about it, they are happy, yet sad, we had to make a decision. do we cancel and wait till the babies come?

do we leave charlie here alone?

do we take her with us? we had a group vote. we voted to take her with us, we don't want something to happen to her while she is alone and we are touring round the world. She is making dinner just now, so i take this chance to ask her to come with us.

"babe? can we talk? i have a very important question." i stare at my battered roshi runs. she nods. she smile slightly, i can tell she is worried.

" baby? we are engaged and i'm pregnant, what else could you possibly throw at me," shes trynna make light of this full hiding out in the middle of no where. she's going to see her family, she wants to bring them to the cabin, me and the boys said we'd go out for a while.she hasnt seen her mum in a long time, so we respected it.

" come on tour with us? we leave in two weeks and i don't want to leave you here, not after last time we went on tour." i was referring to our fights, she cried every day for almost three months.

"beau... what about the babies? of course ill come with you, your agent already asked me to. we had planned it together so we can all get away from the shit, " she smiles at me, but her eyes told me something was wrong, "Beau we need to talk about Luke, we can't keep him out of our children's life forever, he is their uncle for pete sake. But what do we do?" her voice broke a the end. to be honest, i don't think he deserves to be in there life,

" i don't know babe, we can work it out, just not now, we need to pack," i stand up again and walk up stairs, i watch her walk round the corner and slam a door shut, i guess she went outside, i then hear her scream, i sprint down stairs to see her outside, with a large figure approaching her for fuck sake. not again, i cant wait to go on tour, Luke quit the group.

we leave tomorrow, but charlie and i need to go shopping she has no hoodies left, i let her use mine but she is worried in case she stretches them. i told her it's okay i dont mind as long as she is comfy, oh well, she is driving down to the store. we are both singing our hearts out.

its our song, it's not really a relationship type song but it was the first song we ever performed on stage together when she surprised me on tour,

this is my king speech, i'm no where near the end , if i s stutter ... sorry i ain't heavens sent.

I messed my life up and yeah I've been down
I'm a changed man now, Chris Brown
You know I feel your pain 'cause I've done and been through it
I'm Kurt Cobain but I just couldn't do it
No point in turning back just to hit rewind
Back to the future, Ma... Marty McFly
Deep inside, there's a fire
'Cause I'm no longer looking at a reflection I admire
I paint the picture of a fighter, but their's someone's looking back at me and says I'm a liar

If I should die before I wake, the least that I could ever say
I made mistakes but held on to my faith

[Chorus:]
'Cause when I look in the mirror
I don't even recognise myself
Got the heart of a winner
But looking back at me is someone else
No regrets
No regrets
No point in crying over yesterday
No regrets
No regrets
'Cause we ain't even seen the best of days

Oh oh oh oh oh oh na na na na na
Oh oh oh oh oh oh

This is my last chance, I'm on my final straw
I came so close to b-b-b-breaking like a spinal chord
I came from nothing, some kid in Camden
Now I'm flying in the birds, Richard Branson
I'm a prince, yes I will... get the crown (Shh)
Kate stays in my dungeon when her sister's around
So please forgive if I make mistakes
But I'll blow the bloody doors off, Michael Cain

If I should die before I wake, the least that I could ever say
I made mistakes but held on to my faith

[Chorus:]
'Cause when I look in the mirror
I don't even recognise myself
Got the heart of a winner
But looking back at me is someone else
No regrets
No regrets
No point in crying over yesterday
No regrets
No regrets
'Cause we ain't even seen the best of days

I'm free to be whatever I, 'cause I'm famous
Call me Gallagher 'cause I'm so shameless
The papers, saw the pages that are the cost of my failures
Victimised by the public, don't know if I could take it
So I sing
So when you feel like there's no more and nothing left but the life you've broken
No regrets, no turning back
Pick up yourself and tell them I'm just being me

[Chorus:]
'Cause when I look in the mirror
I don't even recognise myself
Got the heart of a winner
But looking back at me is someone else
No regrets
No regrets
No point in crying over yesterday
No regrets
No regrets...

No regrets!

[Chorus:]
'Cause when I look in the mirror
I don't even recognise myself
Got the heart of a winner
But looking back at me is someone else
No regrets
No regrets
No point in crying over yesterday
No regrets
No regrets
'Cause we ain't even seen the best of days

'Cause when I look in the mirror (in the mirror)
I don't even recognise myself (oh oh oh oh)
Got the heart of a winner (of a winner)
But looking back at me is someone else (no)
No regrets (no)
No regrets
No point in crying over yesterday (ehhh)
No regrets
No regrets
'Cause you ain't even seen the best of me

we both looked at each other with smiles on our faces and tears in our eyes