Loveless

What Really Matters

'Dear Diary, it's been awhile since I've last seen Sebastian. The scoundrel has since been on my mind. Not that I'm worried or anything. It's just occurred to me that it's been more than two years and tomorrow making it three. He's probably up to no good seducing women into his room once more. Anyway, it's got nothing to do with me. But then again, it just gets me all riled up inside that he's gone missing in action. And to think I was going to be married to the fool. Hah, as if.' I close my diary once I stop writing. I have nothing more to say. *knock knock* "Who is it?" I ask at the knocking on my bedroom door. "Missus, you seem to have a guest here. Should I send him up?" I hear the butler ask from the other side. A guest? Who could it be? I'm not expecting anyone and I doubt it would be Sebastian... I roll my eyes at the thought of him. "Go ahead. Do what you must. It can't be any worse of a person from before." I relentlessly answer. A few seconds after and I watch the door swing open revealing the butler and the guest himself. "Your ex-uh-marriage-ee is here to see you." he says, leaving the both of us in my room, shutting the door. Propped up on my bed, I cross my arms and raise a brow. "Mr. Michaelis." I say with a firm voice. Having his hands in his pocket, he takes one out to wave at me. "Hi..Evelyn-" he begins. "It's Miss Lovedoer to you." I intervene. "Right, I-uh-forgot." he adds, bringing his hand down. "You know, it was about to be Mrs. Michaelis." he further says. "Yes, it was, and how fortunate I'm so glad it's not." I snicker at his comment. "Okay okay, I'll stop with the attitude. Just tell me why you're here." I tell him, hoping he'd give an answer and maybe, a good one. Sebastian walks over to the edge of the bed. "May I sit?" he asks. I nod in response and he takes a seat beside me. I told him yes, but this sort of made me uncomfortable, so I look away towards the wall. "Evelyn.." he begins. I grunt at the sound of my name. "Sorry, Miss Lovedoer, I forgot." he explains, I just nod in response. He might be here, sitting beside me right now, asking for my forgiveness or whatever, but sure thing is I'm gonna make him work for it. "Miss Lovedoer, I, Sebastian Michaelis, truly apologize for the unconventional event that took place three years ago." he starts. I roll my eyes at his comment, making it hard to believe him. "I'm being serious. Please listen." he comments, catching me rolling my eyes. "Oh really? And it's just taking you now to realize the seriousness of your actions?" I question back. "I'm getting to that. It's taken me this long because if I want to marry you, then I should breakup with all my prior girlfriends at the time, shouldn't I?" he explains. "Wait. I'm sorry, but did I just hear you right? You said you wanted to marry me. That can't be right, can it?" I question, half in shock and the other half seemingly in denial. "Yes, I did say I want to marry you. Seriously." he repeats. "Oh okay, but that must be because the other girls just couldn't do it for you, huh?" I push further. Sebastian clears his throat. "No, they really couldn't, Evelyn and yes, I am and from now on will call you by your name." he comments. I was now giving him my full attention that I wasn't just a few seconds ago, still kind of in shock from processing this kind of information at once. I unfold my arms and lay them on my lap. My eyes were glued to him, as if I just couldn't look away right now. "It has to be you, Evelyn. I've been thinking on what you have said and you are right. You were mentioning something about me regretting letting go of the one that truly matters. And you were right. I woke up one day realizing what all of that had meant and even though we've known each other shortly prior, that day, you've made a really big impact on my life. And if you hadn't said that to me, I probably wouldn't have noticed what I've been doing all my life and would probably keep going in a circle. If you hadn't told me, then who really would? You're the only one who's gone against me and hasn't fallen prey like the other women I've seduced and it's kind of been intriguing to know that there's actually a woman like you in the world. And that's why I want to truly keep you by my side. I truly feel like you're the only one made for me and it's hard to think of other men wanting you." he pours out his feelings to me. I was truly speechless. I couldn't believe the words I was hearing from this man. Even though I wanted to and believe me, I really wanted to believe what he's telling me right now, but it all seems too good to be true at the moment. "I don't know if I can believe you." I tell him, trying to find the right words, but came out with this instead. "Well, I didn't really think you would believe me right off the bat, but trust me when I say this, coming from a womanizer such as myself, it really took this whole three years to break it off with each and every woman I've come across and to truly find myself with what I really want." he explains. "Oh? And what do you really want?" I ask, kind of curious to know. "This." he answers, while taking my left hand in his and placing a rose-golden band with a white diamond center down my ring finger. I hold my left hand up, gazing upon the engagement ring shining stunningly. "Oh my gosh..." I say with admiration. It was so beautiful. I know he hasn't exactly asked me yet and I haven't really said my feelings, but I really didn't want to remove the ring. Reason being, I, myself, was in love with this guy and taking it off would just sadden me. Sebastian gets up from the bed, turning to kneel on the floor right in front of me. Oh my...he's really doing it. Me? He wants me? Out of all those other females, he only wants me? He reaches for both of my hands, placing them within each of his own. Looking deep into my eyes, he says "Miss Evelyn Lovedoer, I know we haven't exactly had much time together, only a day to be honest, but if I may say, after you left to go home, I must confess that it has only been you on my mind, like I've said before. We don't have to get married right away if you don't want to. I will gladly have the rest of my life just getting to know you till you decide when our wedding date is. As long as I get to stay by your side even merely as a boyfriend. Just seeing you wear that ring on your finger, I would be happy just with that. But to have the privilege of seeing you wear that ring, I must first ask, will you Evelyn marry me?" he pops the question. At this point, I can feel the tears already streaming down my cheeks. I truly feel so touched at this moment of my life. "So...what's milady's answer...?" Sebastian asks nervously. I slowly nod my head. "Mhm...yes." I breathe out. "Yes? Really yes?" he gets excited. "Yes!" I call out. Sebastian rises to his feet, lifting me up with him and pulling me in a tight embrace. "Oh, thank you. Thank you. You have no idea how long I've been waiting for this moment. You're the one I've really fell for." he spins me around, excitedly. "Aah~" I cry out, equally happy as he was. I'm so glad I waited for this moment. It took quite a bit of time, yes, but I never could imagine what he's been doing all this time to get to this point.

Four years later, it was officially time we decided to have our wedding. Getting to know the guy who had at first tried to seduce me and make me like his other women was quite interesting. I'm not gonna say it was smooth because all relationships I know of are rocky with time, but I believe we managed to pull through. Yes, especially with us, we still have our witty comebacks and comments, but I know that I will truly be happy with this man. Our families are pretty content with their children getting married to each other, especially with mine, but I've already stated why. Here I go, making my way down the aisle of the chapel. Friends and family gathered around us here today, watching two people who love each other start a new life. I know he feels the same way. I know I don't have to worry about that. Oh, Sebastian. My Sebby. I love you~.