Day likes the ones we are having now are the hardest. For me, that is. She is off and acting weird, and I have no clue why. I try to do my basic stuff to up her mood and I try to make her feel better but nothing ever works. I always get frustrated at myself, and she takes it that I'm annoyed with her and I'm not I just don't know what to do. I hate the awkward feeling and I hate that we have to distance ourselves because I don't understand it.
Sometimes, things end up better by the end of the day, but sometimes things don't. I always wish for them to be better but when it's not, she always takes it as the taking things personal and I don't know what to do. I still love her to death, I always will, but I just never know what to do and I hate that feeling because I'm her girlfriend I should know what to do and I should know how to make her feel better. But I can't.
I'm trying, right now, to convince myself that someone is a genuinely bad person, and that the choices they make, do reflect who they are. It is quite hard, because this person has been there for me sometimes when no one else was able to. I've accustomed myself to always look at the good in other people because by doing that, it is causing less drama. So since I have done this, it is hard to change that for one person. Especially one I've known for almost 4 years. I will get to it eventually.
That last paragraph was completely unrelated to the point of these letters, but yet they aren't. I feel I have to convince myself to reverse the process that I built up over a span of 3 years. I'll be okay though.
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RomanceEvery thought that goes through my mind everyday, is expressed on here. With no filter.
