Remember

Chapter 2~ He doesn't remember me.

Phil's P.O.V

I woke after, very frightening and very restless nights to see my wonder boyfriend was awake, after what had happened and was okay. I thought anyway. I saw him looking around the room. He didn't even know where he was but that's okay. But then the powerful, heartbreaking of all questions came up. "Who am I? And Who are you?". I stood there looking at Dan's beautiful face as tear's rolled down both of our faces thinking, "Dan's trapped inside of his body. He doesn't even know that I'm his boyfriend." I knew I should of gone with him to make sure he wasn't speeding because I know he was upset because I said that I couldn't go to see his parents with him because his brother doesn't like me. If I had just said yes he wouldn't be in this state, he wouldn't of been in another world and he wouldn't of lost control and crashed into that bank upside down. He wouldn't of gotten hit twice by two different car's and a lorry hitting the side of the car to push the door into his body, crushing him. This is all my fault I thought. I didn't want Dan to watch me cry but then he doesn't even know that I'm very important to him and that he's here because of me. I don't care anymore tear's are just a way to show that you're sad but in a different way than to painfully harming. Like a what I did a very long time ago. I stopped because of Dan. He made me happier. He made me the person I am today. He believed in me and Raised me into a better person. He was why I quit smoking, drugs, self-harm and drinking. But lets not forget that I helped him too. I helped him believe he's better than he feels. That he's more beautiful than he thinks and definitely isn't what people call him "emo" "faggot" "Twat". He stopped trying to commit suicide for me and I stopped trying to make myself feel better when all I needed was for someone to care about me. Like Dan did. All those happy memorise of us, have disappeared in Dan's head. All those happy memorises of us travelling and doing TATINOF around the UK, the world, have now vanished. Dan won't even know about his Danosaurs that we see around London all the time. As well as our virtual son Dil and My Philions. The nurse came in and told me to go home as I hadn't gone for a week. She said she'll keep an eye out for Dan. My tears still filled my with tear's; but I walked home to think. I didn't have a car of my own. Dan and I shared one as it was easier. I could of taken the underground home but it's too crowded and I wanted to be alone. I hate everything about this day. The sky is depressing, so is my mood, my boyfriend is awake but doesn't even know himself or me and I just feel shit. Will Dan ever remember me? Will he ever remember all those happy memories we have had? If not I will try my best to get him to remember as I don't want to lose my best friend, boyfriend and soulmate...