A Life Less Ordinary

Part4 - When one door is closed...

You drive me crazy! I whispered what only made him laugh. Well, our Marky is too caring. Nicky laughed. They knew that I was having a baby but not who the father was. We would tell them after the tour in June. You should take him as the babys dad. Shane said punching Mark slightly onto his arm. Mark blushed and looked away. Yeah someone has to take care of you if you don't. He murmured and smiled at me. I do take care of me. I said. But he was driving me nuts. He cared about me and the baby but sometimes he overreacted. He will be a great dad... I thought. Why was I so afraid to tell him? He was really happy about becoming a dad. If only he would love me the way I loved him. So I just smiled back and went on with my job.

The tour was great and then it was over. I wanted to leave the aftershow party early, I was just too tired after those two long days in Dublin. So I went to the four of them who stood together. If you don't need me I would just go to sleep. I said. No wait, Sarah. Mark said and grabbed my arm. I need to tell you something. He said to the others. They looked at him curious and smiled. Ehm.... It's me.... he said with a rasping voice. I am her babys dad. They all smiled at him and jumped at him. Congrats, bro! Shane said and smiled at us widely. I win! Said Nicky and holded his hand open to Kian. You knew? Mark said surprised. And you betted? It was so obvious, Marky! Nicky laughed and blinked at me. Of course they knew. How couldn't they?

The next morning it was time to say goodbye for everyone. Westlife was over and there was no way back. Everyone was very emotional. The lads were sad and somehow happy at the same time. After spending their whole adult live in this popmachine Westlife they were happy to break free.

On our way home to Sligo Mark and I didn't say a word. We knew that now the time was there to decide how our life should go on. My heart was aching, I would really miss his company. He has been really cute and sweet to me during the tour and I knew once we got home he wouldn't be around all the time anymore.

Next goodbuy, huh? I asked when he stopped his car in front of the house where I had a small appartment. I  guess so. He said and smiled at me. But don't think you could get rid of me so easily. I laughed. But how should that work? I asked. It will, Sweetheart. He said. We're friends and we will figure a good way out, right? Yeah, but I love you and you don't love me! I shouted at him in my thoughts, but I kept them for myself.