A Life Less Ordinary

Part 6 - A little boy who changes my life

My heart and soul was filled with pure love. I sat on my bed in the hospital and held our son in my arms. He looked like a little angel, he had his eyes and dark hair. I couldn't stop smiling. Mark was sitting beside me, his smile as big as mine. His arm was around my shoulder, the other hand held our sons hand. We had named him Nicolas Oliver.

Mark had been there for me the whole time. During the twenty hours I've been in labour he has never left my side. That and to see him with Nico made me love him even more. Still he had no idea about that. How could he be so blind? Or did he know but never metioned? I just didn't care at this moment. I just stared at the little angel in my arms who was fast asleep. Thank you. Mark whispered in my ear. I looked at him, not knowing what he meant. For this little dude in your arms. He said and gently kissed my cheek. I leaned my head at his shoulder and could not fight my tears back. Thank you. I whispered. For being there and for caring about us. He pulled me closer. And then I fell asleep in his arms happily and dreamt that he was mine.

When we came home everything was perfect. Mark was the perfect dad and our little Nico brought so much happiness in our life. Soon we even ended up sleeping all in one bed, Mark really didn't want to miss anything. There were no time for any dates and it felt like we were a family.

When Nico was almost six months old we had Marks family there for celebrating his birthday. The party went well and everybody enjoyed themselves. I went upstairs with the little man to feed him. When we came back I heard Mark and his brother Barry arguing about something. I went closer, hoping Nico stayed calm. Nooo! Mark said fierecly. You don't understand, Barry! - Mark, you don't understand! Barry responded. You don't know what you are missing. - We are friends, nothing less and nothing more! Mark said and let my heart break. Just because we have a baby together doesn't mean that something changes. For the last time, please accept that I will never marry a woman! - Don't be stupid! Barry answered. I can see how much she loves you and that you love her back!

But I didn't want to hear more. I went upstairs, laying Nico on a blanket with his toys and just sit there and let the tears break free. How could I've been so stupid? Of course he didn't love me! He didn't even cared about me loving him! The moment he really fall for someone new would mean the end of our family. It wasn't made for eternity. And he deserved to love and be loved back. So I decided to leave him. I lay on my bed crying and thinking about a new plan.

I didn't noticed when Mark entered the room and sit beside me. Sweetheart, what's the matter? He asked. I looked at him with teary and red eyes. Go away. I cried. He layed his hand on my back to comfort me. I said go away! I repeated. And stop pretending you care about me! Mark sighed. I DO care about you! He said, not removing his gentle hand from my shoulders. No you don't! I cried. He decided to pull me in his arms. Sweetheart.... he said. Leave. Me. Álone! I said loudly, bringing Nico to tears. I fought myself out of his arms and picked up my crying son. We'll move out, Mark! I said. That will be the best for all of us!