Ok after you read this 'unfinished' chapter tell me what I could do to make it better or tell me if I should end this book
I guess first person....oh and there will be some cursing
I woke up to my phone buzzing it was Jay he wanted me to meet him at the coffee shop on campus I made my way there once I got there is saw Jay I took a seat in front of him
"We need to talk," Jay said in a shakey voice
"O-ok," I say scared of what Jay just said
"Well I love you but," Jay said trying to avoid eye contact
"But?" I ask scared to know the answer
"Its just I don't want to do this anymore," he said looking down at his lap
"But?" I say in a fast high pitched voice
Jay shook his head a slow no looking up at me fighting tears
"Oh I guess I better go," I say as I stand up then walk out the door
I start to walk to the dorms once I was inside walking down the hallway when I was pushed up against the wall by Raley and her friends
"I see you are single now looks like Jay didn't want a suicidal bitch for a girlfriend," she half yelled half whispered
"I guess not," I say sarcastically while trying to wiggle my way out of their grip
"Don't even try," she said kneeing me in the stomach
I lifted up my feet using their grip to support me I was too heavy they dropped me I tried to get up but they started kicking me it was like middle school and high school all over again
I tried to crawl away but the pain was to much they suddenly stopped when Raley's boyfriend came up behind them he just stood there then walked away I guess no one Raley knows cares about other people I kicked back bringing one of them to the floor I got up and started to run it heard foot steps but they stopped after I turned the corner I walked in side mine and Raley's dorm I didn't want to see her again but where else could I go I had no friends I was depressed I broke down and started to cry I got my phone and plugged in my ear buds. I saw a pair of scissors I kept looking at them I grabbed them I cried I wiped away the tears fighting back more I could barely see but I started to dig into my wrist when I felt them being torn from my hand I was brought into a hug a tight but comforting hug I could tell it wasn't Jay I tried to pull away but I could feel my wrist being examined I had cut deep I was beginning to get light headed I was being picked up who ever it was they were on the phone with it guess a 911 operator.
I woke up in a hospital bed I was confused I had a bad pain in my stomach my wrist and hand were numb and I couldn't remember anything I looked up there was was a man I couldn't see his face he then looked up his face then looked happy then it looked full of regret or sadness.
"Who are you?" I asked
"James," he says
"For some reason that makes me think of the name Jay..., why am I here?" I say
"Jay is your ex and you are here because of my stupid mistakes," he says looking back down
"James," I say feeling like a toddler
"Y-yes?" He says tilting his head
"Im sure what ever happened it's not your fault," I say still confused
"You are here because of jealous people and me not helping you," he says
"Im still confused," I say
"You should start remembering things in a week or so," James said rather quickly
"Who is the jealous person or people," I ask
"My girl- Ex girlfriend," he says looking down again I knew there was a missing piece of whatever puzzle it was.
"Oh forget I asked," I say as the nurse walked in
"Oh your awake," she says
"Yeah," I say not sure how to act
"Well I just need to check a few things you will be able to leave in at least in one or so hours," she says
Time skip 4 hours
"Ok so let me get this straight I tried to kill my self but you stopped me but you didn't stop me from being beat up by Raley?" I say
"Ye-yes and I'm sorry and I understand if you want me to leave," he said as he gets up assuming the answer was yes
I get up and I hug him he was shocked by this he flinched then slowly wrapped his arms around me.
"Why did you come to the dorm in the first place?" I ask softly
"I was coming to apologize," he stuttered on his last word
I broke free from the hug
"I accept your apology," I say
"But you don't remember much I've hurt you before ,I've done so much to hurt you it's my fault I-" I cut him off
"But your apologizing saying you're sorry we are in college we should learn to accept things, besides you have one more strike," I joke the last part
"Oh," he says you can tell he is the confused one now
"But-" he goes to say I again don't let him finish
"No buts," I say
Raley walks in looks at James and then plops down her bed
"The two people I hate the most right in front of me," she says rolling her eyes
"Leave her alone she did nothing to hurt you," James says
"Ok go ahead do what ever sappy love story things you were doing," she says getting on her phone
